posted on Jun, 20 2015 @ 02:06 PM
Hello, ATS. You may call me what you wish, but I refer to myself as Rain. This is not my first account. My other is LucidWarrior, but I felt that I
was not able to live up to that name, and so chose to use one more apt until such a time as I can truly claim it. I am here on ATS because I have
questions, I have begun the Journey. Unfortunately, I feel no progress, only an ever increasing sensation that I am a child floundering in the deep
end, and sinking, fast. I have the Will to swim, but Will, as I can attest, is not nearly enough. I have cracked open the doors, but for whatever
reason cannot open them further. Is there something on the other side blocking it, or am I simply pushing the wrong way? The infuriating thing is, I
know the ability to swim is somewhere inside, but I cannot reach it. I live life without fullfilling my own potential, sometimes because of myself,
and sometimes in spite of myself. I am discontent to live in this world as Society expects me too, but the problem is I have no idea on how I want to
live. As a result, I waste away. Days are spent passing the time, instead of capitalizing on it. I am squandering myself, and I grow tired of it, and
yet still find myself doing the same old things. In this, I would like to echo PageLC14 in that I invite each member to share with me and all ATS,
anything you wish, be it advice, words to remember, or just random nonsense. I assure you, it will be received on my end by as open a mind as I am
able to maintain.
Moving on. I will participate in any thread that I feel I have something to add to it, an I will read any thread that sufficiently catches my
interest. I will most heavily be in the mysterious subjects and science&technology forums. Well, I think that's about it for now. Thanks for listening
to my ramblings, and have a great day, everyone.
edit on 20-6-2015 by 5leepingWarrior because: (no reason given)