a reply to: Astrocyte
I don't know about you, but I broke my brain at some point.
I can take your idea of systems, and with a much more limited view on bio chemistry/consciousness/Darwinism I could still say that systems self
organize into larger systems.. Society becomes an organism.. Naturally this organism gains self awareness at some point, and to that end you have
think tanks, and people controlling our past present future. They are the brain, or part of it.. The US Army is like a muscle.. We are fighting our
self... And I almost think in fact we all know why we are killing our society body self.. It is because we feel the layer of free will as ONE person
is the right layer, and we strive to maintain something out side or "democratic" large scale processes.
to me I really lost my ability to hate..
I can't hate Lebron James for being arrogant.. I am arrogant sometimes.. The most interesting thing about him is his basketball skill, which is a
positive thing.. Most famous people are famous because they are good at something..
Society drives me in a call to action type of way, but I have very strong will..
I broke my brain... My thoughts? I don't have them unless I think them.. I only have an inner voice if I read or write, but at no other time as far as
I can perceive. Call it active mind control.
My emotions are less of a power in chain of command for me. I only recently understood that when I ask people why they don't just control their
emotions, they literally had no idea what I was saying to them. I had to have a strong sadness overtake me after this, and it came for "no reason,"
that I knew what they meant, about emotions being higher than mind..
I almost always knew what all my emotions meant, because they came After my choice of how I felt..
Mainly the point on the breaking of the brain.. I'm losoe in the chain of command.. I've found that many people auto respond, be it in words or in
emotions, or any other way. I can't do that anymore(as much).. I don't have auto thoughts(as much). I have to think them on my own.. So if someone
talks to me, I have to listen, and then think.. I take longer to talk, and it's hard to flow and remember things, because I have to do all the work.
Almost like I merged parts of the brain, and I remained the thinker/doer of the system. The weird part in that, is I'm now more artistic then math
oriented. But I can choose to be either.. Sometimes I don't know how I feel, because I havn't chosen yet.. Sometimes I sit there, and havn't decided
to think in 30 minutes.. I know my subconscious is going full blast, but it doesn't have to pop up into my consciousness as an annoying sign waver..
It's just part of me, and I let it be part of my ego..
Here's my main point. What comes first the chicken or the egg? In an organized system, be it your own self awareness or the self awareness of the
human society.. No matter which point you are on in the chain of command.. The chain of command is on a circle, and any point of the circle is the
beginning, or the end, or the middle..
Like the movie Inception. We are waking up in the middle of our lives.. (like how you were talking of past genetics and environmental response, and on
and on).. All that effects how we are, humans from the past.. And then knowing those gaining free will, by changing the future not completely based on
I was in the Army
I have watched many movies
I have read books
I have no idea how much programming I don't personally like is running around in "my head." I do know that I actively explore "my head" all the time
to check to see I can call it all me. It has to have my approval for me to let it stay in my name.
Even then, I do not ID myself as the mind, nor do I call myself "the body." nor is the ego me. In one way I am a mix of all those things affecting
each other.. The word I use for it is offensive. I call it god.. I am some consciousness that has direct access to my subconscious, and my ego at the
same time. My thoughts often ramble, because of this.
This entire post was written from my mind/ego, so it should be less psychic, a bit more dull, less artistic, and a lot easier for people who think in
the mind to see what I mean (in as much as I can actually explain things LOL).
Hope some of that makes sense, and is actually relevant to the OP.