a reply to: nwtrucker
I can agree with aspects of your posts to a degree. There is certainly a "medicate first, worry later" culture in medicine, not just psychiatry, must
the vocation of medicine in general. It's gotten somewhat better over the years in some ways, and worse in others. Thanks to the "War on Drugs" and
the abuses of drug seekers - these days actual and real chronic pain sufferers and morbidly ill people have a hard time getting any help.
Being a PTSD patient for 30 years, I can honestly say that finding any doctor willing to medicate or treat not just the PTSD, but anything at
is very difficult. In 2010 I broke a bone for the first time in my life - my arm, right at the wrist. The local ER saw that I am a PTSD
patient, on my records, and the crusader-type doctor gallantly informed me that I would NOT be receiving any pain medication for my injury.
Why? I suppose he was of the mind that PTSD is one of those things people fake to get narcotics and he was making some sort of moral stand. As it
happens I was not on any narcotic medication at that time - and am exceptionally careful about the medication I am currently taking ( a mild narcotic
). A lot of the work I do with my current doctor is based upon making sure I do NOT develop a dependency.
I've got enough life issues without addiction becoming a concern.
So, in reality - outside of seeking out quacks - getting treatment for many psychiatric issues can be exceptionally difficult. At least for me it has
been. I imagine that if I were wealthier? Well Michael Jackson managed to get a live in Doctor who'd prescribe him anything he requested - legal or
not. But I'm not rich - so I've literally spent years on no medication when I really should have been medicated.
As previously mentioned - I've done talk therapy to the point where the therapist said I'd taken it as far as it can go. I've also learned
biofeedback, self-hypnosis, deep breathing, meditation, and a slew of other "non medication remedies" - tools I utilize often. But with massive panic
attacks? Simply not effective.
A cure would be fabulous. Unfortunately there is not one for PTSD. There are treatments designed specifically for military who suffer - using video
games to recreate the tragedy that left them with PTSD. But since mine is from having lived through hundreds of near death experiences and a full
cardiac arrest due to a heart defect - well it's not like I can be cured by having a doctor stop my heart over and over again until I get used to
As far as the comment about it being in vogue to collect disability: It took me SIX years to get my disability case before a Judge. He grudgingly
awarded me disability. But, when the paperwork showed up, his order was worded in such a way as to both award and disqualify me at the same time ( A
legaleze game I have since learned is common ) - leaving me with SSI and having to begin my disability case all over again - from square one.
The part that really irritates me ( both from a personal standpoint and when others judge ) is that at 18 years old ( when I had the cardiac arrest )
a social worker tried to force me to go on disability - and I decided that, since I had already been working for four years with the heart
, I would continue to do so for as long as I possibly could... That I would tough it out until the day came when I honestly could not go
any further. Yet, when that day came? The system punished me for wanting to contribute.
The belief that disability is a program that one can waltz into an office and get for the asking is not reality.