posted on Jun, 5 2015 @ 06:30 AM
That little girl I was so long ago,
Seems she refuses to just let things go.
Sad memories that I had buried deep,
Purposely thrown into the devils keep,
and thought were gone forever more,
They have surfaced again, just like before.
So hurtful they were, I just couldn't stay
And the memories did start to fade away.
All the people who hurt me when I was child,
I left them, and I ran for hundreds of miles.
But fate has brought me back to this place,
Because there are things here that I must face.
Answers I need, questions I must ask,
To heal my soul and forget the past.
One thing that seems to trouble my mind,
Is that the players have changed over time,
They are more then when I knew them last,
And I am uncertain if I can complete my task.
They have families and have made amends,
With some, I have become the best of friends.
And as I sit in silence I think why am I here,
Is it to heal my pain, my heartache, my fear,
Or am I to witness that over a period of time,
Wounds tend to heal and things work out just fine.
As I talk with them about all that we did,
While growing up, when we were just kids,
I realize they all had wounds of their own,
And I wasn't the only one, I wasn't alone.
Forgiveness, that is why I came to this place,
To understand all the things that I've missed
To know that all has changed for the better,
That what happened before doesn't really matter,
That we all carry some dirty little secret of our own,
The weight more than enough punishment alone.
To learn to enjoy life, all the moments I have left,
To overcome, to learn, and to live with no regrets.