posted on Jun, 4 2015 @ 08:44 AM
I just found by chance your forum, read one very interesting topic here before signing up. It was when I was googling for...ETs.
I'm 51 of age, married, got a daughter. I'm a housewife with literature background from school + philosophy, while my husband is Physical Chemistry
PhD, knowing more about maths and sciences than me.
I was raised in Christian faith (catholic), then had a bad experience in an evanglical church which I left. After one vent which led me to be in a
coma for one day, I started a very solitary Quest about myself, etc. I had many night dreams about me, a possible "soulmate" (still living today but
with whom I lived in past lives). I never practiced, in this life (today), about occult, regressions under hypnosis, etc. But I just had "epic"
night dreams about which I could only talk to a psychotherapist and 70 year old Kabbalah Teacher of a Synagogue in tmy hometown.
Like many people I heard of the New World Order and "conspiracy", but thanks to my Jewish friend of the Jewish community I also discovered that the
"conspiracy" theory has deeply affected the Jewish community often seen today, still, as the children of the false god (as suggested in many
passages of the New Testament). Keeping this beautiful friendship in mind with this Jewish Kabbalah Teacher, and having learned from him that the Book
of revelations is a vision (and not a fretelling prophecy about the future), I think that I didn't fall in the trap of seeing the whole conspiracy
theory as an attempt to validate the return of Jesus as Messiah. By the way, I don't believe in Jesus being a Messiah anymore, and don't believe in
a Saviour "in the flesh".
I'm open-minded, in general on many discussions. Except that all that is sci-fi, aliens and a part of New Age : I don't feel in affinity inside with
all this. I don't well with all that has to do with neo-nazism, even neo-Paganism and Eugenics. I am very earth-to-earth and feel in harmony with
Native American shamanism (the primary simple concept of the visible and invisible with guide animals).
I read a few interesting books about the Gnosis, but more Christian apocrypha, and also Abd-Ru-Shin books which helped me to understand better a few
points, very similar sometimes with the Jewish Tradition, about the human soul and Spirit. But still Abd-Ru-Shin isn't for me a Master or guide, just
one who opened a path before WWII (he died in a concentration camp). Other than this, I also loved reading Friedrich Nietzsche and Carl Gustav
I hope to contribute in topics if I can or if I feel I can help. I'm not a chatty clam and for some topics to discuss, I hope that my English will be