a reply to: TorinoFer
Even if you have the money or coverage, it's just part of the challenge.
Stumbling blocks of these kind, make one question everything you know about yourself.
Usually even in the best case scenario, the doctor's will err on the side of more rather then less medication.Their primary concern is usually just
trying to stabilize you at first.It's traumatic, and leaves someone wondering if the cure is worse then the disease.Doctor's often sincerely mean
well, but who is ready to be a human guinea pig for what could be months of adjusting one's medication till others agree you are "normal".
Christ realizing the medicine is necessary, is even colder comfort.It's scary, and you have to let go of many expectations for it to even succeed.Damn
it, this is harshing my mellow.
F*ck stigma.It's a crossroad.You have to fight, be brave and believe in yourself.
They told me when I became psychotic, "Your brain is broken."
"Ok, what part of my brain is damaged?"
"Everything appears to be normal, we believe you have a chemical imbalance"
"You can see that on the MRI?"
"Not exactly, blah, blah, blah"The drugs don't help me remember his nebulous response, lol
They told me that this runs in family's and I have had this my whole life, but it doesn't usually show till later.I'm sure the hash, problems with my
old lady, working 60+ hours a week, and sleep deprivation had nothing to do with this/sarcasm
"When can I go back to work?"
"Oh, we don't think you will be able to do that anymore"
"Is that your decision?"
"You need to think realistically about your future!"
"Thanks, doc I'll pass everything on to the wife and kids!"
Don't drink the kool aid, people.You have your own freedom of choice, so you do what is right for you.If I would of bought that mentality, I would be
dead.It's one of the hardest things in the world, here is where the maze becomes a labyrinth.If you don't believe in yourself you, how is anyone one
else?Don't hand off that authority to anyone, sincerely fight to make the most of your experience.What other choice to you have?
That was 9 years ago, and I am working and this diagnosis was the missing piece of the puzzle for me.I had been running around so long like a chicken
with my head cut off, that I forgot to stop and smell the roses.
Medication sucks, it can take a very long time to find out what works for you.You need to be patient and heal on different levels.If you find yourself
in this position, don't let the fear get the better of you.It is critical that you find medical help, good psychiatrist and therapists who you feel
comfortable with.You really need to trust who you decide to work with.If I would have listened to what the doctors told me, when I first received this
news I I probably would still be in the hospital.Don't sell yourself short, you can heal and be yourself again.Just be ready to accept that this is a
long term process.
And that's all I have to say about that for now.
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