a reply to: SSFFlood
Funny, I just go done writing this, just to write it out, and I come onto ATS after years and find this thread. Here you go.
… How to start something. When you have an idea, when you have that spark that there is something grand in your mind. How doe one decide the
manner in which it is to begin. This, apparently, is how I've decided to start mine. Also, here at the beginning I want to say this. I have no
proof for anything contained within this work. I have done do dedicated research. I also don't claim ownership of any ideas I write. People may
believe the same as me, some will not. I don't know that I'm the first to think this way so I won't say I am. It also focuses strongly and almost
solely on Western belief systems. But this is what I believe.
The world is too complicated to be black and white, one way or another, this or that. Everything call true or law break down at one point or
another. We live in a world of grays. Just as infinity lies between 0 and 1 it also lies in gradients form black to white. For most this means the
posibilities are endless. Anything is possible. While this is true I don't want to look at the gray area, because for me the gray area is the path
to follow to get the point where infinities meet. It is in those areas where truth is found. 0 or 1, black or white, these are where truth is kept.
The path we navigate to get there holds meaning only to the individual taking it because there are infinite ways to get from point to another. Let me
show you the what I came to know as my path, my way to truth.
I was raised Roman Catholic. I went to catholic grade school and high school. I went to church and was an active member of it's community. And even
though I don't call myself Christian or catholic anymore I love the way I grew up, but sadly that is also what drew me away from that path. I grew
up, I grew into myself and needed to find a path that worked for me. It started with this question. How could it be that God made us all unique,
made many cultures, races, nations, planets, galaxies, the entirety of the universe, and expect everything to follow one way? Why give us choice and
place us in an ultimatum to either us it or not?
Through asking myself questions like that I came to who I am today. There are too many questions to right and no real answers. But while my path
changed my faith didn't I still believe there is a God, and only one God. But then I started to wonder how each religion claimed to have the right
one. There can't be a right and wrong one with only one to begin with. I don't remember how or when the idea came to me, somewhere soon after high
school, but my theory on religon and God boils down to one idea. All roads lead to Rome.
That idea is where my mind took off. All paths lead to God. Could this be it? Is this how it works? So I made myself a little list and yes each path
ultimately leads back to one force. Each path being limited to what I knew at the time, mostly Islam, Christianity, and Judaism. Oddly enough they
all lead back to the God of Abraham. But them why are the three so different if they all come from the same source. Why are Islam and Judaism so
stringent compared to Christianity. This all bothered me for a long time. I did a great deal of reading and Bible study so why wasn't the answer
Then one day again it hit me. I saw it in the Gospels and in Hebrews. That after Jesus the Old Testament was fulfilled. The strictness wasn't
needed anymore and it boiled down to just 2 rules. Love God and Love your neighbor as yourself. And those too pretty much cover every rule of the
old testament and really show the trust God has in people to find their way back to him. Of course it didn't just end there. How was I, a kid from
Pennsylvania able to see that and no one in 2000 years had. It isn't black and white. Any path that leads us back to God is the right path.
Cultural and Societal things added to the sacred books aside, if someone needs a stringent path to follow to have their life in order, the path is
there. If you are ready to accept freedom and responsibility for yourself then that path is there too.
I felt real good with my way and what I had discovered. But it didn't last because now I had a new problem. Sure I knew how to be good, and I want
to be good. But how could a good and loving God damn those which he loved unconditionally to eternal torture of their soul. That doesn't seem right
or good at all. And for that matter how can God be partial to good or evil at all if God needs to be capable of all things. For God to be God it
must be capable of all things, and maintain balance between them at all times. God must be neutral. That is why having faith is so hard. That is
why it hurts so badly when you can't understand the world around you and why bad things happen. To love God unconditionally with all your mind,
body, and soul and know that if everything is to keep in balance it can't be returned. That is the true challenge of having faith.
I guess working on what a soul is and how it works it the next part of my path. Thanks for reading. I hope it can help bring you clairity.