a reply to: Night Star
Night!! Hi sweetie!!
Ohhh...she calls because she has no memory and can't stay present.
She rants at her son in Portuguese for "not being home".
Doesn't know if it's day or night.
Hides things and blames "the kids".
Freaked out one night because she "heard we broke up".
He is the closest to her, the one who took on the responsibility of "being there" for Mama, when her eldest son of 4, died (age 14), and then her
husband shortly thereafter (brain tumour). She has remained in 'victim mode' for 40 years unfortunately. My hubby, is 'guilted' a lot and feels the
most stress watching her unravel.
So, by the time he calms down, and I calm down...it's past the point of trying to sleep, and ON goes the coffee pot.
Every day, sometimes twice a day for 6 years I have been looking after her.
Every day, she tells me the same stories over and over. I know them all...names...places.
I love her, I truly do...but I know I'm burned out. We both are.
We're doing double-duty (morning & lunch) because the others are in Cuba this week. I'm trying not to be bitter, lol.
Thankful for a sense of humour though, I really am. Can still laugh, so I'll likely survive.
Ugh. You should never have told me to unload. Also, thank you for telling me to unload.