a reply to: WalkInSilence
Good Morning Walkin,
I know it's been a few day's since you posted this, and as I explained, it is not that I didn't appreciate your words, but I needed time to really
take the time to think about what you said in your reply.
Today, I have set aside the day for me. And the first thing I am doing today is reponding to your post.
First, Thank you. Now that I have time to sit down and really read and take in what you have said, I realize how important to me your words are.
I have spent the last 20+ years taking care of others needs. And, I never considered my needs (not met) because of course I was doing what I chose
to do. Have a family, and take care of them.
Now that my Children are of the age that they can take care of themselves, as they should, I still find myself, when faced with choices, the first
thought is still ( Will my choice be good for everyone.) I guess I am considered a people pleaser.
I am very good at being a chameleon. LOL!!!! Maybe too good. Now that I have the time for myself, I'm not sure what will make me happy.
I always taught my kids, and lived, to give back to my community.
I guess now I am searching for a way to give back to my new community, and also Make myself happy and content.
Right now I have issue's with my affilliation with a group. Where I came from, I was accepted and I felt needed. And it made me feel good about
Now, the group I have belonged to for so long, (I feel) only want me to join them if I have lots of money to give and lots of time to give. I have no
problem giving my time, but the money thing really pisses me off.
So I have not participated in things that I normally would. I am even considering going back to another group that I belonged to when I was younger.
But for some reason, and I don't know what it is. I'm kind of unconfortable with that and I don't know why. "They" have been very welcoming, but I
Are you getting where I am coming from? I know I have been kinda all over the place here. I just don't know how to explain it.
My question to you. I'm not really sure what the question is, much less the answer. I'm Stuck!!
I remember a scene from the "Sound of Music" (Love that movie) where the Nun is comforting an old lady who is crying for her Children. And the Nun
replies, " The best gift you can give to your Children is for you to be happy" Alway's makes me cry.
You mentioned the native's. I think it sucks the way things have been segregated. When I visit area's where other's live, I almost feel more relaxed
and comfortable. I was invited by a women at a small store to look into learning more about the live's of the native's that live here, even learn
their language if I wanted. I'm considering doing that.
This is getting tooo long, so I will stop.
I hope your having a good day.
Thanks for taking the time to read my reply.