originally posted by: zackli
Have you ever doubted the truth of something someone said? I do it all the time. I’ve been working on it recently. Things are much easier when you
don’t doubt people. Trust is clearly very important. Part of the reason I’ve been doubting people so much is because of some of my unfavorable
childhood experiences. If you told me that yesterday, I probably wouldn’t believe it.
As a result of “acting” my way out of an inpatient unit, I dissociated my introspection from my behavior. I assumed everyone else did too. It’s
taken me a while to realize that other people haven’t had such “negative” experiences, and still attach significance to the events in their
In a sense, it’s like I’m an observer, thinking things through from an outsider’s perspective within the body of one of the participants.
I see the theoretical value of telling the truth, but in daily life I don’t practice it very often. Sometimes I say I do. I also don’t care about
the feelings of other people, but that’s easily one of the best excuses for withholding the truth when it is discovered. It is accompanied,
inevitably, by a response suggesting that the person can take the “cold hard truth” and “isn’t a baby”. It is then followed up with my
saying “I had no idea you were so strong. I will definitely tell the truth in the future.” It's usually a lie.
I think that pretty well sums up why I’m a (recovering) cynic.
I am sorry to say but your definition of cynic is a tad off, unless you were not comfortable to really share your view on it.
A cynic is someone that sees the direct truth or full experience of something and then in utter disbelief shakes their head at it, because it is so
ludicrous it's laughable that it continues on... like flat earth theory, no two snow flakes are alike, life is only found on earth etc. the clinging
to old concepts dis-proven is the anti-thesis to evolution as a species.
Of course, there is found in some seeing behind the curtain, that can lead one to delusional ideas... that they are somehow superior to others.
Ignorance is a gamut of tripwires that all sentient beings are blind too... until they learn to see them all over an incalculable amount of time... no
one person anywhere, knows all current up to date data on every subject as it happens. So any idea of superiority to another, a delusional self
construct just as ignorant as what it laughs about.
It is very hard to escape such a state of delusion with a self intact, I would say impossible but that would be an extreme... and well once in one
extreme or the other... the self feels so justified for being there it cannot hope to see it, this is why everyone is another's teacher. Someone
could stand on deck of a ship and tell the captain how stupid and how much of a waste his life has been not knowing all sorts of things... until the
ship starts sinking and the captain yells abandon ship, that the person standing there realizes out of all the "knowledge" they thought they
"knew" they skipped learning to swim.
Knowledge is a tool of survival, there are people that have never picked up a book that have made it to a ripe old age. So whatever inhabits ones
mental faculties are pretty moot to ones existence. Now pondering modern society and the state of things... one has to consider how many people lack
the basic skills they need for survival... especially on a world where many refuse to lay down hate and greed and ignorance over petty nonsense filled
with bias and discrimination that are remnants of nonsense that occurred they were never personally a witness too, but hey lets pick up this line and
start playing tug of war anyway.
That's something to be cynical about and doubt... the clinging to things not beneficial to growth and well being as a species when we have all the
tools to do so with ease. There are people that have labeled myself as a fully enlightened being... would you care to know what this so called
accomplishment is worth? When all you see is people writhing around in pain and self perpetuated suffering over ideals and extremes? When all they
have to do is lay it down, and not pick it up and drag it along?
Complete enlightenment is absolutely worthless of an attainment... when all you can do is stand there like an idiot in many's eyes... with
compassionate and empathetic tears in your own, for the rest of your days, with all those existing lines of extremes patiently saying... "Drop it!"
or... "Hey don't pick that up! It leads to nothing but senseless pain and suffering for yourself and others." by pointing to the way out of the
dualistic trap, that leads to peace and ease in everything... one person at a time, and hope they do not get so attached to the one pointing the
finger to the door, that it starts the same horrible process all over again.