posted on Mar, 13 2015 @ 10:52 PM
apparently i do.
i guess i start cursing at whoever tries to wake me up (i think it's because they get mixed in with the dream i'm having--which is usually intense and
mildly frightening--and i get confused with if the dream is reality or which reality is reality or something?).
sucks because i still live with my parents and they aren't the most understanding people anymore. we used to have a great relationship. and we still
do sometimes. but then lately over the past couple of years they go bipolarbear on me. they seem to basically hate me and put me down for everything
and nothing at all. and they never listen to a word i say anymore. because they 'don't care'. which hurts. i wont bore you with too many details but
basically imagine getting called every insulting name that isn't even an accurate description of you or what you 'did' and is totally uncalled for 99%
of the time. like i have had an eating disorder. and they still call me fat, pig, and other words that i can't say on here. thank goodness i have my
fiance. but i really wish my parents would go back to how they used to be because whatever theyre doing is taking a really heavy toll on me
emotionally and physically.
i think i get mad like this because i'm just so frustrated with so many things atm. i know it's wrong. and i don't like being unhappy like this
because i used to be a really happy person. but now i barely even smile anymore and it sucks.
edit on 13-3-2015 by rukia because: (no reason
edit on 13-3-2015 by rukia because: (no reason given)