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originally posted by: ScientificRailgun
What is it I'm not seeing?
I've wanted it since I was a child, and I still want it even today. What is it I'm not seeing?
That you can not want faith without already having it.
originally posted by: ScientificRailgun
That's the thing, I cannot physically CHOOSE to believe. I can pray my little Railgun heart out, but I don't FEEL what others have described as faith. I've read the passages, I've sang the songs, I've had the baptisms, and it was all just motions for me. I can't CHOOSE to believe God is real. I'd be lying to myself and everyone around me if I said I did believe, and I don't believe in being dishonest.
originally posted by: BELIEVERpriest
a reply to: ScientificRailgun
Im sorry to hear that your family and friends reacted in such a way, but faith is by choice. If you try to atain it by works, then you are substituting faith with works.
If you have a desire to believe, then what stops you? Simply believe that Jesus paid the debt of our sins, and you are saved.
Do you have trouble believing that Jesus existed? Do you have trouble believing that God exists? Ask God for the answers, and realize that those answers may not be what you want to believe.
My own personal experience tells me otherwise. I've wanted faith for a long time, and it's never come. Try to put yourself in my shoes. Imagine WANTING that faith so badly that you cry yourself to sleep frequently. That you try to talk to God, you listen and watch for answers you cannot or do not see. Imagine the disappointment in yourself because regardless of how much you want it, it's something you can't have.
originally posted by: randyvs
a reply to: ScientificRailgun
I've wanted it since I was a child, and I still want it even today. What is it I'm not seeing?
That you can not want faith without already having it.
Besides, there is no better explanation to lifes mysteries
another period.
You perfectly describe how I feel. I want to feel that. I want to feel that warmness, the quiet satisfaction in know you trust in Him and He loves you. I WANT that. But I can't have it, and it's infuriating.
originally posted by: Puppylove
originally posted by: randyvs
a reply to: ScientificRailgun
That you can not want faith without already having it.
Um sure you can. Is called wanting to fit in with your family and peers and to not be different. Is called hearing how faith makes others feel and wishing you too could experience it.
None of this requires having faith, just wanting something you do not have.
originally posted by: ScientificRailgun
My own personal experience tells me otherwise. I've wanted faith for a long time, and it's never come. Try to put yourself in my shoes. Imagine WANTING that faith so badly that you cry yourself to sleep frequently. That you try to talk to God, you listen and watch for answers you cannot or do not see. Imagine the disappointment in yourself because regardless of how much you want it, it's something you can't have.
originally posted by: randyvs
a reply to: ScientificRailgun
I've wanted it since I was a child, and I still want it even today. What is it I'm not seeing?
That you can not want faith without already having it.
Besides, there is no better explanation to lifes mysteries
another period.
That is my life.
originally posted by: randyvs
a reply to: Puppylove
OP didn't care about fitting in obviously.
So just as obviously they are two different things.
I call out to him. I pray (not much anymore, it's always led to heartache). People have always told that they could FEEL god's love in them. That they could FEEL the lord's presence. I have never felt that. I've never felt the kind of things the religious have told me they feel. That euphoria in being awash in his love, I've never had that.
originally posted by: ketsuko
originally posted by: ScientificRailgun
My own personal experience tells me otherwise. I've wanted faith for a long time, and it's never come. Try to put yourself in my shoes. Imagine WANTING that faith so badly that you cry yourself to sleep frequently. That you try to talk to God, you listen and watch for answers you cannot or do not see. Imagine the disappointment in yourself because regardless of how much you want it, it's something you can't have.
originally posted by: randyvs
a reply to: ScientificRailgun
I've wanted it since I was a child, and I still want it even today. What is it I'm not seeing?
That you can not want faith without already having it.
Besides, there is no better explanation to lifes mysteries
another period.
That is my life.
Then describe to me what you think faith is?
Here you are calling someone you have no faith in and so upset you are crying?
You sound like someone with a good deal of faith. Is there something else you expected?
originally posted by: randyvs
a reply to: ScientificRailgun
If I didn't want my faith in God it wouldn't be there.
You need to imagine what I'm saying, if you truly want
faith? You see what I'm questioning don't you? I'm questioning
your whole story.
originally posted by: ScientificRailgun
People have always told that they could FEEL god's love in them. That they could FEEL the lord's presence.