a reply to: BuzzyWigs
I have been outside buzzywigs, if we were all one that would not make any sense.
I will clarify, back in 94 I was in the middle of what can only be called a spiritual attack, many here regard these thing's as awakening but this
was definitely an attack, I will go into territory far from what you will regard as normal now, I was attacked I assume because an antity'(s) took
control over humanity, they found a few like myself they could not totally control and who retained data and awareness outside of there control so
they set about identifying us and for lack of a better word, destroying us.
I was in a state of absolute suffering my body ached from head to foot and it was like being burned inside, if I was to try to explain the entirety
fo this single situation alone it would fill volume's yet that would only paint a shallow mental image of what even the suffering could barely
I have encountered a being calling itself Satan and I refused it's offer when I was a child following me experience on the other mentioned thread in
which I recieved memory's of that old guy john but by the 1990's this was almost totally forgotten, you never forget the devil's slimy voice though
it is like an asthmating old man whispering in your ear and when a little child playing with his toy matchbox car in the back garden hear's this it
To go back to that event I will repeat it's exact word's, it actually sounded sympathetic when it said these into my right ear.
"Poor, Poor Paul, I feel so very, very sorry for you, you are going to have such a terrible awful sad life, I'll tell you what give me your soul
and I will give you a wonderful wonderful life, my name is Satan".
I sceamed "No when it released me", it was not physical but only sound, at that time I also whitness a glowing blue crystal that looked like it was
broken embedded in the roof of a house across the street, the lady who lived there died of a very rare cancer a few years later, adult's seemed to be
in a trance like state as if they could not be consciously aware of it and my elder sister who was a teenager at the time walking me to the sweet shot
not far and right past that house simply said "Oh yes" when I pointed and said "Look Frozen lightning", there was snow on the roof and around the
point where it was embedded into the roof apex the snow was melted, over the next week it faded becoming more translucent until it could no longer be
seen and the council who owned the houses came out months later to replace the damaged roof tile's.
On another occasion within a two year period at that early age I remember a silver semi circular car sized object on three leg's in the back garden
of the house, three small almost child like being's with black visors in one silver space suit's with round helmets' and a feeling of terror, I
remember a dark place and a woman's voice, not kind and they did something to me at that very early age, this was after the glowing object and also
after I sad "NO", they took something or damaged something, after this I was not able to play normally and lost human interaction skill's as well
as communication skill's.
Back to 94, I am not going to get into the whole mess as I sound mad enough already but believe me I have nothing to gain by this and everything to
lose by making myself sound like a right and utter twonk.
I was exausted having called an entity, I had under the attack and the ingoring of my plees for help to God had broken my faith in him utterly though
I knew he was there, his motivation seemed to be dark at this point so I fell back into a kind of soul emergency and saw a place I once died a very
long time ago when I lost my immortality and entered one of the earlier world's, I was lying on a grassy hill, I felt a tree that felt solid but I
did not see it behind me, I was lying face down and burning the same way through my whole body, it was this convergance of soul death that joined the
two time, in front and to the right was a singly flower, it was utterly beautiful and violet blue like a blue bell but perfect and on it's down
turned head was a singly drop of dew that refracted the light if a massive moon overhead far larger than the earths moon today, I was between these
two places and time's and saw a star in the sky that I knew should be there was missing as one did not agree with what was being done to me so I
reached for her, it was like stretching beyond everything and I felt the anchor to these body's like a weight holding me down but I called out and
reached for the envelope that surround's this time space or that time space craining my consciousness to the edge of universe into spiritual
superspace, I could stretch my awareness to a little outside and the distance between this and the other universe I was reaching was too far for
I had remember lost all faith in God so at this point I was reaching for some one who could deal with him on an equal footing on my behalf, I cried a
name in the most ancient pre angelic language before which they are coarse in comparison, an entity answered, it was the most profound and powerful
female presence and she said "I am one with all woman and all woman are one with Me, I made God and God made Me", Well this overpowered my senses
and bear in mind the ultimate female essence was talking to a damage male entity so something shameful on my end occured, I was driven by some deep
primal need so I tried to project a universe from this union beyond the reach of both her, him and myself hoping that at least they would be free of
the tyranny and cruelty with a single command to some day do the same themselve's.
As my consciousness returned to this reality I she said "On Judgement day tell the Angel's (Her name) is alive", she sounded not surprisingly a
little angry with me but even more with them and I do believe they are in very deep trouble for what they have done here as the judge has a judge and
she is more than powerful enough to deal with them all", now remember that devil, he spoke and I now know the old B had been around me for a long
time making certain my life fell apart but this was something he had never expected, "What was that you said" he hissed in panick and desperation,
all my defences were down so I repeated her name which he immediately wiped form my mind or blocked somehow but I tried to remember it and can not
nevertheless it sounded a little like Ail-Aeuthera.
About a little after this I had another clair audient experience, I heard that other place and there were a number of male voices, laughing and cruel
they sounded exactly like a bunch of eton yob's, one said "Let's Turn Him OFF", Suddenly I was in utter blackness, but I was forming?, this
brought me to the attention of something, someone and I was suddenly in front of them and given sense's again, these sense's were sight, I was in a
depthless, dimensionless grey void, I felt my attention directed toward a Charcoal Black Sphereoid floating in dimensionless the void with suddenly
took on a three dimensional form for me, then four triangular object's each as large as the sphere and of a prime bright colour that does not exist
in the universe or at least in this reality appeared surrounding the sphere exactly as a male voice behind and above me spoke, It was a perfect
flawless voice of a young man and he simply said two word's I felt were directed-