I attended day 1 of a 2 day course provided by a mental health charity yesterday. I will not be going to day 2.
I wrote this letter to them today to explain to them why I will not be attending. This is highly sensitive and very personal info I am willingly
sharing here in the hope of doing my little bit to smash down all the crap that exists around mental health. I will fight when I am treated like
I am writing to inform you that I will not be attending the 2nd day of the "Developing Your Recovery Tools Workshop" scheduled for 29 January. I would
like to explain here in detail why I will not be attending.
The night before the course I only slept for four hours. I was not able to eat for a period of almost 24 hours around the time of the attendance. This
was not due to anxiety, but rather a feeling of feeling pressured to do something that that I know will be upsetting to me.
I felt very uncomfortable for the whole day. I came away from the course with a severe migraine that this morning is only just beginning to subside. I
was very upset because of the dictatorial nature of the course and felt intellectually very patronised. I felt that I had been lumped together with
people who have very different needs to my own. Bi Polar condition has its own symptoms unique to this condition. It is VERY different to other mental
health related conditions. I felt that the course was remedial in a sense that it almost mocked and ignored the very clever skills I have developed to
manage my unique and individual condition. I have been very successful managing my condition from my own resources, tailor made for me by me. So
successful, in fact, that I do not have to take medication generally to manage my condition.
Please note that I do not refer to Bi Polar as an illness but as a condition. My own views are that Bi Polarity is a naturally occurring genetic human
trait that is natural and may I even suggest there for a very good social human purpose. No amount of argument will convince me other wise because my
own research and understanding has led me to this conclusion.
I also felt that I was treated as though I was on medication, not as an equal human being. I felt that I had been lumped together with people very
different to me. I don't have a criminal record. I am NOT an offender and I am very reluctant to be press ganged into this blanket form of budget,
I am sure the course is useful to those people who are suffering the symptoms of anxiety, lack of confidence, assertiveness, low self esteem and
stress, but I need you to know that I am proud to be who I am. I am confident about who I am. If I do get anxiety and stress it is based on very REAL
experiences of a general public who are not willing to tolerate or make room for people like me.
Finally, I need to remind you that many of your clients are suffering poverty because of being TRAPPED by welfare with only pennies to do the work of
pounds. I am very limited on resources, mentally and physically. I can not allow much room for experimentation and mistake at the hands of authorities
and institutions because of the delicate balance of my life I have developed.
This course is not for some one like me. I do wish all of you would not keep lumping us together as though all mental health conditions were the same
thing. That is both offensive, medically barbaric and is quite simply a waste of time and resources.
To conclude. Your course may be of use to some people, but it made me feel and think what I posted above. That is why I was reluctant in the first
place to attend the course and was upset because I knew how I would feel. I know myself very well. I have acute awareness of my being, better than
any other individual I have ever met. I am a certain kind of person and personality that society in general has a problem accommodating. Not my fault,
dear people. I just hope one day it will not be like this any more. Mean while I will be waiting patiently for you to catch up.
Thanks for your time. I am not sure how things should progress from here as far as my engaging with XXXXXXXX. I am happy to continue, but only if you
at least take notice of what I have written here.
Don't write me off as some loser. I am far from that.
See how you have helped me ATS? My communications skills practised on this forum are empowering me wonderfully. Other members, through argument and
critique, have helped me to develop a very effective prose style. THANK YOU
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