a reply to: ChefSlug
I try to imagine a span of 100 years. I see myself and my world dissipate in that time, new things pop up to replace us. I remind myself that the most
important person on earth today will not even be a distant memory in enough time. That we are all mortal and temporal and even our entire civilization
will be as nothing in enough time.
I then feel myself in a sea of universe. I find myself slipping away into something more. I then let go of everything that is me or that I think is
me....when that person is gone I seem to remain. There is a universal me that is timeless and infinite. That is who I turn to when I have anxiety. God
is that person in a way, prophets and saints....all that is sacred. All sacred thought and all mysteries both revealed and yet to be found.
Spirituality is the consciousness of that person here and now. A bridge to that thing I was, am and will be but that for some reason I seem to forget
when life creeps back in to my mind bringing here and now with it.
Today I was bogged down. Out of drive. This week has kicked my ass all over the place. Today I was spent...and stressed. I could just snap. I had to
go further, when I am like this, I need to see farther than 100 years. I need to see time until it is as nothing. I need to see that universal me
until he is as nothing. There is something more I can just make out. Its so far away that I can get lost in it with just a glimpse. THAT is what is
beyond the repeating infinity.
I can get lost in that. Forget the broken me and see something that is more than even my ultimate form. I am not ready for it, though it calls to me.
Maybe I call out to it. I dont know. But it makes anything I am going through just another thing of this universe I will overcome.
You need to see a bigger picture. You need to find that perfect state in your mind....whether it is attainable or not, just KNOW there is more. In
most cases that is enough to make you dig deep and find the strength you seek.
Dont give up. Dont forget. Hold it down where ever you can. Commit to your war and become the warrior, the weapon and the cause. The victory and even
your honored enemies defeat. BE all things.
You are not alone. You are not the only one. The you that you are now is not the you that will know how to fix you. The broken you exists as a means
to achieve the ultimate you. Remember though....there is more even after that. Something wonderful that can not even be understood from where we
stand. We will need to go there...just take the first step.
Have a good one.
Hold it down.
EDIT TO ADD:
This is from Dune... I say this almost daily to myself. I am actually a scared child deep down inside. This makes that scared thing smile back at the
evils that touch my core. This makes me become me.
"I must not fear. Fear is the mind-killer. Fear is the little-death that brings total obliteration. I will face my fear. I will permit it to pass over
me and through me. And when it has gone past I will turn the inner eye to see its path. Where the fear has gone there will be nothing. Only I will
Find your inspiration everywhere you can.
Be well sir. I have FAITH that you will overcome false hopes....and that you will find true purpose and happiness with that function you chose being
completed in you.
edit on 3 19 2015 by tadaman because: (no reason given)