posted on Jan, 9 2015 @ 10:08 PM
a reply to: onequestion
We strive to be better;
I've out-lived my mother by 7 years.
I'm 11 from out-living my grandma.
I've been alive 13 years longer than my foster brother
I've managed 10 years longer than my close friend.
3 years longer than another close friend.
I try to do what I can to be happy with what I have, but I struggle with the thought of all this pain... all this strife.... to just end it. They all
managed to find happiness, not so much me.
There seems to be no reason to it, but that makes it much more important to me to find my niche. I want to be famous so that my suffering, isolation,
worry/doubt/fear/angst HELP SOMEONE ELSE who won't have to suffer to learn what I have. I want to be famous so I can take care of the people I care
about, the people I meet who want to be better than what they are. I want to be famous so that I can make the world a better place through my actions
and hope that my pain somehow serves even one person in some way.