posted on Dec, 10 2014 @ 10:25 PM
I have had problems with delusions and still do. Think gangstalkers or mk ultra cult. For me it seemed more like an army of energy vampires.
"They" seemed to be everywhere I went. There was no escape, but crowded public places were especially difficult.
I had taken to reciting a mantra associated with the Hindu god, Durga. Known as the great mother. Maa Durga, remover or neutralizer of negative
In the few times I felt unmolested, this mantra could lead to a state of bliss.
Anyways, I would always recite it internally when I was in public. One time in a crowded walmart, I was hit with what I felt was a psychic energy
attack but what you would probably call a panic attack. The symptoms were a burning sensation in my chest, a feeling of not being able to breathe,
palpitating heart and sort of like I would pass out. Not to mention a feeling of generalized panic.
I was already reciting the mantra internally, but for reinforcement I pictured a dark haired woman with a somewhat undefined mid-east/indian
ethnicity. In this visualization she smiled warmly as if there was really nothing to worry about. I smiled back with my physical person. I don't know
if I chose for her to smile or not, but the effect was very comforting.
The panic attack subsided and I even thought that this lady sitting on a bench in my line of sight sort of threw up her hands in exasperation. As if
she was the one attacking me and was thwarted by Durga's smile.
Many times I have been saved from panic attacks by the help of Maa Durga. Maybe mantras can be used instead of medication?
Seems like this is typically a Christian orientated forum, so no offense to Christians for my inserting of a foreign religion here. No offense to
serious Durga devotees, as I am an amateur. And no offense to other sufferers of similar delusions for me calling them panic attacks.