posted on Dec, 1 2014 @ 12:15 AM
a reply to: Flowfessional
but know that things would be different if i opened up to em so i dont.Just figure its best that i don't.
Me too. Don't feel guilty about that. Thats the same position a lot of people find themselves in. Every family has its conformist and its rebel, a
golden child and a black sheep. Usually the first born gets the worst of it. Children don't come with instruction manuals. Parents get better at
parenting as they go.
I'm the rebel and the black sheep. I am the mistake they wish they could go back and get right. Since they can't they will always try to fix me to
make up for their mistakes. If they should just accept me for who I am and allow me to be myself that would be great.
Instead I pretend around them and I know that thats what they want. I'm still me, I don't have to be like them, and I don't have to justify myself
to them. They will always have those expectations that I can never measure up to.
Maybe its they who aren't measuring up, maybe they should take a look at themselves and their weird behavior.