The days are cold & dark, the weather is hideous, most of the soil is frozen and/or dead...our lovely sun doesn't come up for long and sets down
quickly, the night is long... you get up to school or go to work while it's dark and then you spend all day in a building and finally, after you
finish your work or whatever you go back to home, yet it's dark again... so you live in a never-ending darkness it may seem.
people are getting ready for their mid-term finals, everyone is just busy doing their business, trying to stay normal by "stopping" during
thanksgiving, christmas or the new year celebrations, yet they never actually stop, the vast majority of people just don't let go, they can't, they
are being eaten by the system itself... me neither I guess, I don't feel free anymore, as I think about it I hadn't felt free before I realised I am
not free either, but I hadn't been aware of it.. kinda strange feeling...the minds of people are foggy, the feelings are blunt.
and all this Black Friday and other sale madness is driving me crazy, people are really nuts!
When I am on the bus these days or when I shop at Tesco's, all I can see is frackin' zombies, empty desperate faces lurking through their days without
any "deeper" purpose, everything is too "shallow" these days...
During summer I do realise this as well, but it's not quite obvious, I can find some distraction pretty easily, but during winter season it's much
easier to spot this kind of behaviour, is it not?
We are always in a hurry...what is this constant hurrying good for? We hurry years and years for something to achieve and once we do achieve that we
don't enjoy the fact or the consequence of the achievement itself, we or the society set/sets another goal for us and we hurry again. And now you are
old and you see, you've arrived, and you ask yourself, is this
it? Is this what I've been hurrying for? ... and suddenly you feel somewhat
All in all, christmas is not what it used to be, advertising, marketing g and commerce is spoiling it pretty much the same way as Grinch tried to
I can't find anyone normal to talk to, because as brainwashing reaches its advanced stages there is just a few people left I guess... It's quite
depressing really, to feel alone all the time, sitting on the bed during the evenings, scrolling Facebook or forums, having nobody to talk to, and if
there were a person to talk to, the conversation would be probably meaningless and pointless as they just don't seem to understand, they don't want to
I am trying not to think about it, watch movies, listen to my iTunes library...yet it doesn't work out very well thus far.
I miss the times when I was a kid and my family and I were sitting on the sofas in the living room with a candle lit on the table and enjoying hot
sips of a fruity tea...and just talking, talking normal stuff, the TV box was on, yet it seemed kinda normal, like... I don't know, just different. No
iPhones, no pointless chatting with random people who don't give a f*ck 'bout you. Just pure human conversation, held regardless of commerce, fashion,
wealth and social appearance...
Back then, everyone's been busy, yet it seemed like people have always found a little time to actually enjoy themselves, enjoy themselves not just for
the Instagram photo they post afterwards. It seems like we are losing ourselves. Sometimes I fall into this misery myself. It's really a strange
feeling you see, because life feels the same way as it has always felt, though it is different. People don't change, the technology does...and our
perception of what matters does as well.
I think we lost our drive and I don't see it coming back......
edit on 29-11-2014 by Necrose because: (no reason given)