posted on Nov, 26 2014 @ 10:56 PM
Understood. I'm pulling myself up by the bootstraps here to make sure my mood stays up for my teenagers. I have major depressive disorder, but it
gets worse in the winter. Hubby built me a lightbox that is next to my computer, I think it's time to find the extension cord for it. Think I'll
try the vitamin D, that sounds like a good idea.
This year has been and will be harder than most. My mom (my bestest friend) passed away suddenly and unexpectedly at the beginning of September.
(She died on my dad's - her ex-husband's birthday. Still trying to figure out if that was a joke on him or if he considered it a bday gift.) We
thought we would have another 15+ years from her due to her genetics & the fact she took care of herself. She also had MDD, and I spoke to her 2-3x
week. I'm feeling a little, ok a lot, lost here. And I'm very worried about my stepdad. He had been married to my mom for 34 years and they were
never apart. He's 9 hours from here, stubborn about getting medical care when needed, and he hasn't responded to emails for 3 days. I went up
about a month after mom passed to sort through mom's personal items and to help him get all the finances straightened up. (Mom took care of all of
Only thing helping me keep it all together so far is keeping busy. Between my kids' activities, I've been volunteering where possible. I made six
costumes for our high school play (that was fun!). Daughter and I are making fun hats for all the members of her high school soccer team. Then
we're moving into baby blankets for a Christmas NICU project. But when it stops, when there's quiet, that's when it all starts hitting me.
Wow, that was more than I intended, but I feel strangely better.