a reply to: AlephBet
Who can makes sense of any of this?
Most of the time, the revelation is itself a greater lie than was previously believed, and often what you see with your own eyes is an illusion. Your
logic, your emotions, your intuition, epiphany, etc are all tools we possess, but there is no book, there is no singular experience that I know of
that can unfold truth before you like a library for your perusal.
Allegories are interesting and useful. The experiences are vivid and often pleasurable, although if you freak out over a papercut, you might want to
pass on mysticism, because some of the experiences are worse than anything that has ever actually happened to me in this tangible lifetime.
Anyway. By the time I sort all of this out, if I ever get there, I doubt I'll be able to reduce it down to one small post on a website. It seems this
cosmos is a varied and organic experience. No two people are going to walk precisely the same terrain on their path of personal evolution, and so when
you merely follow someone like Buddha or Christ, you are destined to arrive somewhere less amazing than where they arrived, because even following
their map, you do not have the organic forces springing up around you to guide you that they had themselves.
My only advice to people is to live your life earnestly and intentionally. Don't get swept up in distraction and maintain a healthy level of
disbelief about all things, especially things that are incredibly vivid and desirable. When you are ready, things will unfold. I believe that is our
purpose for being here if we are to have one, and you can't force these things. I've sat in meditation trying to chase after these experiences and
they elude me, but the moment I give up and go to the kitchen to get a snack, I am pulled out of myself.
I think they do that to keep us humble. If we ever got conceited enough to truly believe that all of this was generated by our own sorcery, we'd no
longer be receptive to receiving communication from beyond ourselves, and we'd just breakdown all of the connections that are leading us towards
higher integration. Now, while I do hope to maintain some level of independence going forward, it is useless to do so while trapped in smallness. I'm
confident a person can be independent for much further in this journey than most of these self-sacrificers ever make it, and it is my intention to
remain as independent as possible for as long as possible.
Even a person with an annihilated mind can fall onto their knees at any moment and surrender themselves to forces beyond their grasp, but it takes a
warrior to be flung around by these rapids and hold on for dear life. ;p Now, I'd never say I'm up for the task. It is a tall order, but I'm still
here. Moment by moment is all you can do. At least, that's all I've been able to do so far.