a reply to: madmac5150
You got me with your story. I don't see noble much anymore.
I'm in my 40's now, and there have been a few people I've come across in my life that I knew
immediately at a very deep level for no
apparent reason whatsoever. I'd only just met them but I couldn't deny the feeling that not only had I known them before - they felt like...
family. Why did I feel so relieved and happy and surprised to see them when our eyes met?
But it was always a little magical and mystical and just out of reach. I had the sad, but uncanny feeling that we weren't supposed to be together
this time - and were just touching base.
I truly think our bodies are merely avatars for our souls, which are always connected with God. I think we're here to learn, or to teach or both -
and I think we've been here before. The relationships and connections we made in other lives may have been so strong that we can't help but
recognize them when we see them again.
But perhaps in order to grow in the right way, we can't always have them with us every single time. Maybe having them with us every time would stop
us from growing because we'd be so dependent on them for our happiness that we wouldn't learn how to do things for ourselves.
I also think that's why God doesn't intervene more, and lets bad things happen. He knows that we're actually all safe with him, and that we can
get do-overs. He wants
us to get it right, so he gives us lots of chances if we want them.
And since you had that connection with her, to me that means that not only were you here before, but God saw you worthy of another chance to get even
better this time.
I wouldn't second guess myself if I were you. You showed that even though you felt this enormously strong connection with your blue-eyed beauty, and
you were low, and not in a good place, and probably really needed to feel that love and warmth that you knew you would find in her - you respected her
and her marriage enough and were unselfish enough to not pursue it.
Like I said - I don't see noble much anymore. Keep your chin up - you're a good man. You'll find the one you're supposed to be with this time.