Been checking out this site for a while now, finally decided to sign up and join the debates.
First, I want to talk about why I eventually stumbled upon this site. Around 7 years ago, I was living in an apartment with a couple roommates. One
night, I was watching the local news, nothing nefarious there right? Well, I do remember that I was not hungry, I worked at a fast food place at the
time and it was already after dinner. Anyways, I was watching the local news, and for no reason I got up and poured myself a bowl of cereal. I
wasn't hungry, I had no reason to eat cereal at 8 or 9pm at night, it was more like an impulse. Well, I went back into the living room, sat down and
as soon as I put a spoonful of cereal in my mouth, just then the news segment started talking about how more people were eating breakfast foods for
dinner. I barely got through half a chew, and just stopped and looked at what I was doing, I asked myself 'Why am I eating this? I am no even
hungry, and why is the news reporter talking about people eating breakfast at night?'.
That was the beginning of my journey into crazy-ville.
Anyways, long story short I have come to a few conclusions. It's not really important whether anyone believes what I have to say or not, my beliefs
are my own and that is what matters.
It's good to keep things simple, I guess since categories and labels make things simple, I would be in the autotheist camp. No, I'm not talking
Anyways, throughout my journeys there have been moments, where I lifted the veil of this illusion we call reality. Yeah yeah, crazyville, I'm a very
rational person and it just depends on the person I'm talking to which perspective of reality I choose to convey. It's hard to explain these
moments, my belief was so strong it changed reality, for me at least. I was searching for spirituality and enlightenment, I found it and realized why
the vast majority of people choose to remain ignorant. It's not pretty, to see people for who they really are, wallowing in ignorance so they do not
have to gaze upon their own wickedness. Even my own, I try, but I fail. My own weakness, my ignorance, my striving for something more, it is a
reflection of the world and the source. Yeah, that's a little bit of kaballah, but honestly, every religion has at it's core the same fundamental
truth: We are God, We create our own reality, and the 'evil' that exists only exists because it is an inherent part of us.
So, since we create reality, why would we continue to allow for an illusion to persist as being truth? There is a reason for it. Ask yourself, when
'God' or the collective universal consciousness, or whatever you want to call it, was as it were, 'pre-bigbang', when the entire universe was a
single being, with a single consciousness, that had only itself to keep company. Would it be lonely? So instead of living eternity in solitude, it
decides hey I have nobody to talk to or whatever, there will be noone to every talk to but myself. Since there will be noone else, what if I divide
myself into infinity, disconnect myself to infninity? Well, this is the result.
Welcome to Crazyville. I don't really talk about this to most people, most people can't comprehend it because they are not ready for it, and it may
be difficult for me to convey my own thoughts to others. The positive and negative of our awareness being disconnected from the totality of
I don't get that wild eyed look when talking to people about things like this, I like to look at their perspective and shape their thoughts using
I'm rambling, I guess I'll end with this. I have been willing for a world war, not because I'm evil, because quite frankly, I haven't experienced
something like that. World peace sounds rather boring, and transforming back into a single entity with one mind would probably get pretty lonely. Oh
yeah, I have six letters in each of my three names and a nasty little mark from a mean little beast on my right hand.