originally posted by: SystemResistor
I see, a sense of permanence gives one a sense of security, that deals with fear. Something that one cannot "lose" would thus abate desires.
Problem is the sense of permanence you speak of is illusory and not real at all. So what happens when you go through life believing in the delusion
anything is permanent and not transitory? Well, like you say below you fall down... well, other's believing in this falsehood of permanence... don't
get back up or spring right back like nothing happened. Families become destroyed, people commit suicide, turn to crime or drugs as a way to make it
by or escape. If they understood, that everything they worked their whole lives to achieve could come crashing down at any moment from an event beyond
their control... they would understand impermanence and make friends with it. One's demeanor changes from a controlling tyrant trying to be safe in
ones ideological bubble of permanence... into a person that is relaxed, c'est la vie, whatever happens happens, and the struggle to keep a constant
vigil to maintain control over things that naturally arise and pass ceases. If someone wishes to live their life in such a manner that's their choice
to do so... but they are unaware of the ease and peace that letting go brings. Some are so comfortable in their false bubble of permanence, that they
take what they have and the people in their life for granted, these are people extremely adverse to change... and when it happens? are completely
devastated, or fight tooth and nail against anything that would change the world around them. This occurs in politics a lot. For example: Never mind a
persons personal right to love who they want to... I'm not comfortable seeing gay couples/families in MY restaurant, MY grocery store, MY controlled
little reality. So they fight against this change they don't want to see or experience... trying to use politics as a personal remote control instead
of a tool to help make EVERYONE'S lives better. Life is so much more simple and peaceful not trying to macro or micromanage everything.
I see my journey as a never-ending staircase with landings - whenever I make a breakthrough, I reach the next landing, the next level, and
then, continue to climb. I do not think that I would be satisfied remaining at one level - despite the fact that I might fall every so-often, and
indeed I have, when I reach the next landing, I cannot fall back past that point. I feel that we also suffer in order to get what we want, and when we
do get what we want, there will always be something else.
What purpose does one have if they are totally satisfied? I look forward to all the ups and downs, they are apart of life.
Certainly, we progress and we grow but being adverse to change is neither growth nor progress, but either a regression desiring for what once was, or
the other direction; craving something one feels they are lacking. This is the condition of trying to be satisfied. Desire and craving leads to an
idea of satisfaction upon getting or achieving what one desires, then the struggle to cling to whatever that may be and keep it in a state of
permanence is suffering and dissatisfaction. Contentment with one's situation no matter the circumstance, is freedom from all of this struggle of
futility. A car is a car whether it cost 500 dollars or 500,000 makes no difference the basic function and purpose is the same... as long as it has
fuel and runs pressing that rectangle will get you where you want to go. There have been studies that show the poorest in various societies are the
most happiest... now why do you suppose that is? It doesn't mean they don't care or don't try like anyone else, it means what is most valuable to
them they already have... and can never be taken away, unlike those who only see value in objects and chase the silliness known as status.
I have my passions and I share them with others, I build things, I design things, I create things for others to enjoy, and I lend my encouragement and
support to promote my friends efforts and give them my voice when they feel lost and helpless... at the same time, I am very mindful of what my
motivations and intent are and the kama that arises from everything I do with my body and speech as well as those I am in close contact with. I
understand our interactions and their intentions so well from decades of practice, people think I can read minds. This of course is not the case, but
understanding the human condition and what we face or desire on a daily basis is something I am very intimate with.
It's a lot like movies. How many of them tell the exact same story when distilled down, beyond the individuals, the place, the time, all the things
to be distracted or enamored by to make you immersed or blind to the situation as it really is? I could say a wonderful young man named David bright
in spirit with resolve to not be alone, ran across this free spirited young lady that loved art and had a flair for the dramatics, they were somewhat
polar opposites in the way they did things but they clicked and got along very well. Then as the summer was about to end he was accepted to MIT and
she to BCA, though they loved each other the desire to live out their dreams for the future tore them apart and they went there separate ways, several
years later at a symposium they stumbled across each other and reunited, both just happened to live in the same city and they got married and started
a family. If you strip away all the non essentials it's boy meets girl, boy loses girl, boy gets girl back... the classic frame of all such stories
stripped to it's bare bones.
Well, to me this is what enlightenment really is, it is all the distinctions and dualities stripped away to expose the underlying truth. The pain that
David had on losing his love after summer was over... is the same pain as everyone else has had in the same situation. We believe it is somehow
different because it's a different person in a different place or a different time. But no pain is pain, loss is loss. Understanding this brings
compassion, experiencing this brings empathy. So while others are mired in the details and getting lost in the story line, I am seeing the bare bones
of the situation. Understanding my experiences and others experiences and drives common to all people, conditioned and unconditioned brings a clear
insight of reality into the nature of the problem at hand and being able to do so allows me to act or respond with exactly what is needed in the
moment while others lost in the story want to know why David didn't chose another college, wonder how they met to further muddle the clarity of the
situation etc etc. of course there are many facets and situations to life and this is why the first glimpse into reality or enlightenment is not the
end but the beginning.
I still have a few fetters binding me in ignorance, but fortunately I am not ignorant to what they are and also have enough skill in direct
application of practice to remove them. I have to admit, I am a lot like the blindass monk that said you will find me in the brothel or in the ale
house. Is it right that I simply refuse to look into a few things that I don't want to see the reality of? Perhaps, perhaps not. But it allows me a
foot in both worlds, one of austerity and one of indulgence but it is not as mindlessly deluded as it once was.