Sorry, but have to write something about how I am feeling as need to get this off my shoulders.
I am having real problems dealing with English society and these burdens being placed on me as an individual as forced behaviour.
I feel a very heavy weight of oppression stacked against me in England. I was born here; one English parent and the other not English.
I look very individual as I dress and wear my hair exactly as I wish to and not what others tell me to look like. I am very creative and the image I
project is part of my creative expression of my individualism. It is not a manufactured protest against anything. I naturally have always done this
and will always do this.
I approach my whole life with creativity and making my own rules and decisions. I abide by the laws of the society I am in and do not impose myself or
my ideas onto anybody else.
Literally every time I leave my house it is a problem. I find people to be so cold, judgemental and really quite fascist. Most people I interact with
seem so small minded and robotic. They are so filled with propaganda and behaviour patterns uploaded to their brain by the media and seem to have
little individualism and personal vision. I find so much of what I have to tolerate to be very ugly and cold.
I have had this all my life; at school, in work and all other social environments. I have in fact given up on bothering with people. I live on my own
wits in my own world. I did used to attempt to compromise, but this led only to being abused, misunderstood and I was the one who had to feel the pain
and suffer the breakdowns and bullying just to try and live a normal working life.
I want to tell you people that you have no right to tell me how to live MY life. Who are you to impose your behaviour on me? Who are you to choose how
I should live?
I don't go forcing you to adopt my ideas and social vision do I. I don't tell you that you must be a vegetarian and like dub music, that you must have
long hair and be this, that and the other.
Live your life how you want. I have absolutely no interest in making you live and behave a certain way. What modern life is doing is very fascist in
nature. It is giving the message that we must all behave in a certain way, so rigidly defined, and that anything else must be hammered down like the
nail that decides to stick out or the bird that gets mobbed for being too colourful. Stop being such brutal, bullying beasts, people! There are almost
seven billion of us and we are all individuals and our asses are not owned by anything except the universe that created us.
Back off politicians. You have no right to tell me how to live. Back off media! You are turning humanity into such narrow minded robotic little
beasts. I will live the way I want. You do not own me. I am nature's child. I don't belong to you. I am NOT your slave.
I live my life with the art of colourful people like Jim Morrison, the poet Rimbaud, Bob Marley, etc. They are the people I admire most and give my
ear to. They have lots to teach you selfish little creatures who go around playing social police and stamping your small mindedness on others. They
taught me how to be free. You only teach and force an empty, slave like existence on those foolish enough to let you into their minds.
I will continue to be myself and have the freedom I have spent so many years trying to find. Yes, I have found mental freedom and it is very far away
from you shadows of what you could be. I'll live or die trying.
"Emancipate yourselves from mental slavery
None, but ourselves can free our minds"
Bob Marley "Redemption Song.
edit on 13-10-2014 by lonesomerimbaud because: (no reason given)