a reply to: xkillbox5000x
It can be difficult to separate voices in the mind, and recurring memories and real thought. When one "thinks" they are collecting various ideas
together, and trying to solve a problem, thinking actively and using your mind and its contents as opposed to just living in a state of recurring
memories. When one uses their imagination, they are "daydreaming" and entertaining themselves by exploring themselves.
I have been contemplating for many years, and it all started with very simple ideas and assertions, the more I have thought, the increasingly complex
my mind has become, and when I apply my mind, there are many different thoughts that are working together at the same time, as opposed to a "chain of
thoughts" in the linear sense. Basically, I am learning to think multilaterally, many different thoughts encompassed at the same time. Along my
journey I have had countless epiphanies and many memories of "past lives" that I have also been using to gain insight into myself.
When you mention thought control, it is because the individual does not have the capacity to corral their thoughts together, and question thoughts
themselves. This requires a higher level of awareness that they would lack if they perceive that thoughts are "uncontrollable".
The mind is a brilliant tool, and when you exercise it, it eventually becomes "subservient" and thus one can use their mind like a computer,
performing sums and calculations and additionally, creating new thoughts by synthesizing other thoughts together.
My main hobby is creating music, and I have many components that I have connected together by trial and error, coming up with new configurations. When
I compose something, I have to take into account the operations that each instrument is performing, and the way that they perform together. Also,
there is the creative effort required to compose something original. It can be a lot of "fun" however, it has reached the stage where creating a piece
feels like "work" as I have to expend much energy. Sometimes, when I am connecting things together in different ways, I feel like my instruments are
an extension of my mind, trying different patterns and paths.
Although, going back to the "mind control" I feel as if we are "limited" here, as if there is a "program" that is preventing us from using our minds
to their fullest extents. I feel as if I am capable of remarkable complex compositions, I can imagine my equipment and imagine that they are making
sounds and can compose a piece using my mind alone. However, to then take this composition and program it into the equipment, I hit a brick wall, and
suddenly some kind of subtle "force" prevents me from applying what I had imagined or putting my thoughts into physical actions.
Often when I am dreaming, it is amazing because it is like everything is perfectly "clear" and "obvious" and I often explore my own "inner world" that
is full of colours - however, when I wake up, I usually forget most of what I had been thinking on a higher level, and a kind of "force" makes me
"forget" and brings my thoughts down to "lower frequencies" and things become stark and plain.
I feel as if our minds are being seriously "retarded" and restricted from being utilised to their full potential. I remember reading an article about
supposed "genetic modifications" to the human being that prevent us from thinking many things at the same time, only allowing us to think "linearly" -
some kind of "screen" that filters out complex thought and only allows one thought in at a time, and generally only thoughts that are deemed
I saw in my mind, what looked like some kind of "mechanism" implanted in my mind, it only allowed one thought to enter my mind at a time and behind
the "wall" was my true state of mind that was rich and complex and full of potential. I remember once when I got very angry, my shouting sent a shock
to my mind, and the next morning I felt as if I had broken the "wall" - my subconscious thoughts started to become apparent and I had many revelations
since that time, however, now, the wall has closed up again. Another time I was playing sport and after becoming extremely exhausted, I felt as if the
"seat" of my consciousness returned to a place that was "behind the mind" as opposed to "in them mind" - however, shortly after, I was drawn back into
Convexly, often after a heavy night out drinking, I lose awareness, and I remember being "trapped" in the program for a while, I felt as if I could
not think outside of the "square" like my mind was "zapped".
It is a constant battle to maintain a higher state of awareness.
edit on 25-11-2014 by SystemResistor because: (no reason given)