a reply to: muse7
My man, i'm right in your zone.
I am very sociable and like meeting people, but i also get a bit nervous and anxious because i am horrendous at small talk. Just regular chit chat.
Those involve jokes, some cleverness and wit, knowledge on current culture, ability to come up with something interesting to say from the top of tour
head on the fly without too much dead silence in between. I can't do any of that. I am very intelligent, but when it comes to conversational wit,
cleverness, and all around entertaining, loose banter about whatever, i fail.
To get me talking for hours, it must be about something important, something that truly matters to peoples lives and environment; science, politics,
religion, social issues, conspiracy, culture, nature, all that.
The only way i can converse on anything involving pop culture or any popular events is to dissect, evaluate, and criticize it. Bring friggin game of
thrones and it's awesomeness, and i will start inquiring why and how it is awesome, and maybe if it was not so publicized and advertised, you would
not even think it was awesome if you found it somewhere. Apply this to all the popular things the general population of north America loves in music,
fashion, entertainment, celebrities, current events, whatever, and you will have an individual who you will bet is "alot of fun at party's".
I don't know how to converse and joke lightly with people at all, and unfortunately that makes up most of a conversation with people. Once we get
through our own lives and what has been going on, i am bobbing around in the open sea until it is something that matters to life and the individuals
in it, and very rarely
think of anything funny or witty to say. I have lost potential friends because of this. Some people will smirk or
chuckle right in my face because of this, which annoys me (the hell is so funny? Oh? Nah, nothing...)
I can feed off of someone else's humorous or subject-less banter, and roll with it, coming up with funny, clever, or interesting things here and
there, but i lose steam after awhile, and it's up to the other/s to keep it going. If it's left up to me, something that is not socially
"entertaining" will b brought up by me. A few will be interested in the subject, most will say a few things, but will finally verbally express what
their face is saying, and will want to drop that subject quickly.
Just a couple of days ago i was having some beers at a restaurant with some friends from my disability group. The subject was the hot female
volunteers/members and there breasts. I am on a quest to be faithful to God, and since i started a couple years ago, i have gown a bit uncomfortable
participating in any conversation of the sort. I chimed in a bit to not look un-manly, until the convo turned to the football that was on all 6
screens in the small restaurant. I then brought up a subject me and a friend was arguing about a few nights before; why sports are popular , what it
entails, and if people who play organized sports learn life lessons from playing it. I brought up the last part, and my opinion was not necessarily.
About 7 minutes expired of everyone else not giving me an equal chance to fully explain my position and them not comprehending the full scope of my
explanation. After that, they all agreed to return to the boobs.
I'm an acquired taste. Some can roll with me, most can't. Ehh, whatever...
I feel you, muse7