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So you are taking Flupentixol and you still hear voices everyday? Curious how long have you been on this medication?
And....... I am guessing you do not dream anymore or rarely?
Continue to follow your doctor's advice and please let him/her know that the voices are still at it.
This really is a very touchy subject. Because we still don't understand the physical mechanisms by which mental illnesses work, the only option for secular society is to suppress the symptoms with drugs.
On the thing you saw, it might not have been him, but maybe something else appearing as him.
This guardian angel... have you tested him? Are you sure he isn't a deception? I'm not attempting to make you paranoid, but the scriptures are clear that we are supposed to test and validate anything when it claims it is from God.
Have you determined what god exactly sent this guardian?
I found this statement of particular interest as I have always believed that Schizophrenia is exactly that ... I see it as a portal or vortex in the soul that allows access to outside souls/spirits ... for example ... a little like leaving a door open in your home and the neighbourhood strays decide to pop inside either for a little warmth or to cause some mischief.
When you choked on that grape as a child and you were unconscious/dead ... the shock of coming back into your body may have torn this portal/vortex open in your soul and since that time the 'soul strays' in your mental neighbourhood have been able to gain access.
I wonder if you had written any lyrics/notes on the day you had your experience that may have invoked this entity ... because I do believe you know the difference between reality and forms developed by your condition.
If you have any specific questions I would be happy to answer if I can ... and I would like to thank you for bringing me out of my self-inflicted ATS exile.
Definitely come back with updates.
Either this thing is real or your brain fabricated it, but either way some part of you knows why. You just have to trick your mind into coming forth with the answers.