A few poems from this month* no titles

I wrote this on the 11th of August this year.



Disconnect emotions ..from my soul
Break it out ...leave an empty hole
Take out my eyes ..so I can't see
Sew my mouth shut.. no way to speak
Hands cut off ..now I can't feel
Spirit here ..is too easy to steal
Limbs are severed.. Made into a riddle
Heart was seized.. Out of the middle
Inner voice ..went completely silent
Comprehension gone .. In a riot
Carry me out .. Place me in the ground
Bury me deep ... You won't hear a sound
Gather up my bones .. Lay me to rest
Already has happened.. It's for the best


And then this one on the 12th of August.

Such is life when we open closed doors
This feels like a dream .. Not trying to score
Shaking
Crying
Numb
Dropping to my knees
Take this away please
I figured out this is a type of hell
Being put under someones spell
Something took hold and now I'm not here
I'm back in my minds well that I hold so dear
I know I can handle certain things
Burdens we carry .. Pain it brings
I just feel some things fall right through
Everything around turned black and blue
Where's that light .. At the end of the tunnel
Stuck in a whirlwind of a twisting funnel
Can't even grab a certain thought
Battle inside that's being fought

This one the 16th of August.

Stomp me out and let me be dead
I want to return to a slumber of sleep
I don't want to hear anyone anymore
My heart is too tender for any of this
You might think I'm strong but I'm not
I'm tired
I'm done

This one on the 20th of August.

Vague thoughts enter and exit through this mind
Some are like complete dreams and some reality
How to differentiate is hard to grasp at times
Living for life and love is my secret speciality
Take my porcelain hand as we walk side by side
Understanding can be difficult .. But easily defined
Dark plagued thoughts are scary ... Pulling down like gravity
I would enjoy to step out of my well and live with humanity
Some feelings I can't shake and they swirl and swirl
Let me take my skirt as I dance and twirl
I try to block some of the feelings I feel
But something knocks to take away the real
I say when in doubt dance it out
I seem not able to dance this one .. In doubt


And lastly... On the 25th.. I wrote this

When I think of the air whirling my hair
I want to run away without any cares
Take my hand lets frolic in the field
Taste my lips.. Keep the love sealed
Memories of old stir in this mind
Some are horrid and some are kind
I need to stick to kind ones for sure
live in the present and settle the score
The past is there for us to learn
live in the now and let the past burn

Thanks for reading
-nat the blue eyed cat-

Very emotional. Good work, indeed.

a reply to: MentorsRiddle

Hey thanks. I write how I feel better than I speak it .. It's always been like that. I wish I could just say how I feel through my voice. But poetry or just writing helps


Oh and your poem was really good like I said in my reply to your poem.. More people need to read it. Very good

So much pain and turmoil in those poems, but that is often when the best stuff comes out.

a reply to: Night Star

I agree with you Night Star. Very emotionally painful.

My original reply was much longer, and said the same thing. But it timed out on me during the reply, and I lost everything I had typed out.

a reply to: natalia

I can Feel These Poems! Very Nice Work. Keep it Up Natalia!!!

a reply to: MentorsRiddle

The site has been attacked I guess. When ya see the timeout, refresh your page, hit confirm page resubmission, then it should show what ya just typed. What a pain, eh? LOL!

a reply to: Night Star

My uncle tells me in order to see the light we need to dwell in the darkness but don't let it take over... I like that..
I do write more deeply when I'm down.. It's just something I've always done. Thanks for reading
I know everything is going to be alright.. One day at a time

a reply to: SyxPak
Hey thanks
Gotta dance and write everything out!

a reply to: natalia

Bravo!!! Love your poetry, Nat. It always tears at my heart strings, beautiful as always. You can really see the progression of your emotion from the first poem to the last one, from being disconnected to figuring things out.

The first two literally brought tears to my eyes. These two lines describe exactly how I've been feeling for the last week, didn't realize it until reading them. Once we figure out how were feeling, it's only then we can move on.

Where's that light .. At the end of the tunnel
Stuck in a whirlwind of a twisting funnel

a reply to: natalia

Nat,
You should really keep all of your work and one day make a book of life by Natalia. Your mind is very deep and your love shines through your work. I'm near on ninety and love your living through your work. Thanks for helping me pass my days reading the great ATS people.

a reply to: Jennyfrenzy
Thanks jenne
I feel like I am going to figure everything out and everything will be okay.
Sure my thoughts still whirl around like mad and I will just continue to write my emotions out through poetry.
Better to put it to words than keep it bottled up inside.

Thanks for your kind words

a reply to: Seede
I have several lil poetry notebooks laying around here.
My lil sis thinks I should write a book as well.. That would be very interesting.
Thank you for your kind words, much appreciated.

a reply to: natalia
I am happy to see you have been busy! I always follow your writing. I have shared with you that I too find emotional relief when I write from the sad side. Part of my signature relates my personal discovery: It is in the wounded heart we give birth to truth. It is in the birthing pain we hear its cry and recognize its voice.


Peace to you my good friend.

a reply to: grayeagle

Very wise words my friend
Thanks for following my writing ..much appreciated.. As I follow your writing and several others on here as well
Good day to you and peace and love to you friend ~~>

a reply to: natalia

I really like the last one. Very good!!!

a reply to: Samilton
I just re read that one and thanks!!! I do like the last two lines
"The past is there for us to learn
Live in the now and let the past burn"
So much love to you xoxo