a reply to: Sha33
Thanks for your kind words. I tend to be a 'threadbomber' - I drop in, make a comment, then skip off - never to return. I am, these days, making a
bit more of an effort to come back and see how things have gone on, and it's always nice to see a pleasant reply.
I do pray regularly, consider myself a Christian, but hold that the highest natural philosophy (devoid of revelation, IE a naturally evolved form of
spirituality) is Taoism - the pursuit of perfection & simplicity in all that we undertake, the need for compassion, the need to refrain from impacting
people in a negative way - Taoism is a fine, noble, artistic system, and the forms of martial combat derived from it are utterly fascinating. I'm
considering getting a tattoo of the Chinese symbol for the Tao on my left hand - I have another tattoo in Hebrew on the right.
With that in mind, I certainly understand that when dealing with natural energies within ourselves, or emanations from others, or from elementals/
'spooks' in the local environment, a consistent approach to retaining a grounded, centred position is absolutely necessary to resist and deflect the
efforts. As you say, it can be deliberate or subconscious; in my case, it's not only deliberate, it's damn sophisticated, involving subliminal
keyword triggers & actual hypnosis attempts - it is VERY deliberate, and very carefully crafted. For good or ill..? Still not totally sure after
twenty five years of it - that's how good they are.
Recently, in the month of January 2015, three visits to family were arranged (their requests, my acceptance out of politeness & simple respect), but I
really didn't feel up to the battle, as I was knee-deep in wading through my journal notes from 2014, picking out threads of interest & building a
collage of understanding as we entered the New Year. Thankfully, on all three occasions, Providence intervened, and various issues cropped up which
put a total block on the potential for a visit. I hadn't actively prayed about being 'spared' the ordeal in any case, but the Universe conspired in
my favour, as it seems to be doing more & more these days. I know I have genuine support, despite the uncertainties concerning my natural family. NB
- it's important to note that my back-story involves being born and raised on military bases, and significant MILAB events, accompanied by 'MK-Ultra'
style conditioning - though (unless memories have been hypnotically suppressed) it's been quite mild, when compared to the horror stories of what some
poor kids go through.
In my personality type, I need to gain a full, total, holistic understanding of my position in relation to various anchors, same deal with topics of
interest; I want the whole truth, and nothing but the truth. I've now had enough time to get a better handle on things, and feel ready for the year.
Last year was manic, lots of stuff going on, and I determined to make a better go of things in 2015. Thankfully, we've now got a plan, a routine,
clarity concerning the direction, lessons & growth provided by the events of last year - thus many excuses to not be around for family visits (due to
participation in extracurricular activities by the kids, for example...) I'm glad to have been given the chance to put things in due perspective
before struggling in the tangled web once more.
edit on JanuaryThursday1501CST09America/Chicago-060043 by FlyInTheOintment because: Sentence structure fail...
edit on JanuaryThursday1501CST09America/Chicago-060045 by FlyInTheOintment because: Forgot the object definitive. Umm. Maybe. I forgot
which words mean which stuff in terms of grammar in the English language - my kids know more about the structure of language these days...