posted on Aug, 18 2014 @ 03:51 PM
Thank you so much for posting!!
Besides my interest in conspiracy, I joined ATS to combat loneliness. I've been struggling with isolation from my partner for five years now because
we, perhaps foolishly given our financial status, are building a new house.
Our old house was extremely mouldy, leaky, collapsing and rat infested. We threw ourselves into the new project without thought of how much money,
time or family it would sacrifice. We see each other for coffee five mornings a week and that's it. We hate our round the clock jobs, but have to
keep running the treadmill that has kept us apart all this time. My partner has two days off work a week in which to build the house so miraculous a
one man work force.
We can't talk to much about it to each other for fear of depressing each other.
So... speaking of wonderful firefighters... Last night I met two amazing women, firefighters from Alberta. I invited them over to my place and through
them I suddenly saw my life through different eyes. They didn't know the exhausting life we lead but instead saw the house as a monument of my guy's
love for me. They kept grabbing my arm and hugging me saying "he so totally loves you!" I went to sleep feeling kind of blissed out, seeing the
truth and big picture and woke this morning minus the chokehold on my heart and ever present leaky eyes. Yay firefighters! Heros on so many levels.
The video with its image of the fists unclenching was really powerful. I realized that it's my psychological fist that was crushing me when nothing
really was wrong and that in the universality of sadness we are not alone.
OP.. I am so glad you are loved enough to feel such longing. The loneliness may be there but so is the connection.