a reply to: Benevolent Heretic
And to a reply to: Aural
This is true, and you make an excellent point that I honestly really did over look. Sadly for people like me who would live in a small town, I would
have to pack up and move. Sad I know. I have been absolutely FORCED to live a way I was very unhappy with. I was fired from jobs for being gay. All
I was left with was to run. Run and find a place better suited for myself and my partner at the time. If we stood up and fought these bullies we
would have been killed, as it was constant harassment.
Sadly I do not have an answer for that, as it stand we live in a country that does not treat other human beings with respect. They spew their vile
hate upon us, and put us in a cage. (The city cage, where we have more options.) Some countries would just HANG my ass, or stone me in public.
I feel you, I really do. And maybe my point was to broad and over the board. Maybe it is because I feel defeated most the time. Was not until a
little while ago I found the strength to really start just facing those things. And trying to understand why I have been so defeated. So bullied.
But then again I am not looking for pity.
It may be a contradiction to my first post on here. But I was honestly trying to play to the other side base of those in this thread. I get tired of
being attacked at in condescending ways. Ive been on the front lines before, and had to jump back into the back ranks and try something new.
I thought maybe if I could find some "common" ground with these people who hate on us so much, maybe I could reason with them. Sadly this is not
working either, as then my own side comes at me, and is like WHAT gives?
If it is not apparent from my posts here, I am on the side of gay rights and myself I count myself along with them.
But truth be told, I was born with both genders. So am I gay if I love a woman. Am I gay if I love a man. I was born with both parts. Its
confusing as hell. While I do have more female qualities than my other side, I still have to fight along side with fellow LGBT as they are in the
same boat. Every application out there says gender. Male or female.
They make NO special foot notes for people born like me. I am forced into one or the other, when I am BOTH.
I really hate even saying this in this thread.. As I see it coming, the name calling, the confusion.
But I like you BH I always have. So I figured I would give you an honest reply the best way I could.
My family made the choice for me, and raised me as a boy. Once I got into my young teens, I questioned that choice they made for me. Yet on all my
records it says male.(I have 2 sisters, and they really wanted a boy, but I was half that, so they FORCED me into that before I had the chance to grow
into who I really was, I was BORN this way.)
Hence when I go for a job interview, I am told.. You need to cut your hair.
I did that ONE time, and donated my hair to locks of love. 6 months later, I was Laid off, as they found out I lived a different lifestyle. And
found a way to legally get rid of me. As much of a boy I was trying to be, it just was not me.
And I came across as a very femme boy. But that was me being forced into something just to pay my bills and live like everyone else. Total BS.
(Sucks to as a female, I would make LESS money, so I chose to work as a guy to make MORE money, total BS, and a whole other topic there. Just so you
can understand that part, as I would have picked Female gender if it was given that choice, I wasn't. so now its permanently on my records.) I could
change it, but its lots of hoops to jump through, and have my name plastered all over local news papers, freaking wrong IMO.)
After that I grew my hair back out, and said F them. I am not being discriminated against anymore.
Sorry I really went off topic here, but had to make my point of view very clear. So you can understand my place and spot better.
Back to your question.
If a person lives in that small of a town, that is that vile. In a perfect world it would be nice for everyone to "play" nice and get along. The
reality is, people are hateful, spiteful human beings, who are very DANGEROUS.
Ive got my fill of death threats. And by that time, its best to move on, and find a place that is more willing to take you in.
Yeah its not right, I do not agree with it. I have barely made it out of some places with my life. Being called a freak, Or asked to drop my pants.
Or WHAT ARE YOU!!
Sigh, its very tiresome. And sometimes I just give in to the greater hate that this world has used to oppress me.
Sorry I do not have a REAL answer for you, but that is the best I can do here, and was being freaking honest as hell, and I may end up paying for
that. As members on the other side will read this, and all start pointing fingers, and snicker in the background. Not that I care, but I know human
nature. And 80% of the time it makes me sick.
And sometimes pushes me back into a corner, where all I am left with, its to just give into that vile base, and let them have their way for now.
I am sure I am going to feel the blow back from this post here.. but I am done hiding, and done having to walk on egg shells.
So sorry for what seemed to be an anti gay post.. It really was not. I am just a city girl.. And I have not lived in any small little hateful
villages that do not give me options to choose from.
I would NOT live in any little place that brewed that much hate.. I would leave right away. And it is not fair or right. But it is the world we live
in today.. I am just being honest. NO one wants to play nice. They think its a GAY agenda. to depopulate the earth, or to go against GODS will..
what ever you name it, they have their reasons for being such jerks.
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I just ask
nicely of all members to please respect my post here, and not to use this against me else where. Thanks.
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