Things just went from bad to worse, I was fired today. I had a feeling this might happen just not so soon. My wife told me not to worry that it
doesn't send what we're going through in a downward spiral, and that we'll get through it just like we do everything else that's thrown in our way. I
was happy when she told me that but the provider inside me wanted to scream...without a job, that's quite an impossible thing for me to be. I have
already submitted several resumes to prospective employers, I need work...yesterday.
At the same time, is this some sort of a sign that maybe forces me to step back and look inward toward the more spiritual person I was at one point?
How much more does one have to put up with before totally just losing their *$^@%?
I feel I need to return to meditation and more spiritual aspects at this time, the only thing I deem important now are my two daughters, pointing the
oldest in the right direction and making sure the youngest stays happy.
My feelings for my wife haven't changed (and soon won't), as I am still hopeful that she finds us worthy of saving.
I recieved the call from my boss on the way home, yes, fired over the phone, how very professional. I recieved the standard "Things weren't working as
planned" and all I could think was "You can say that again"...anyway, I had arrived home and told my wife, she was very receptive and calm, reserved
but not angry. I soon after called an old friend to vent, that made me feel better, he seemed to understand and gave me some sound advice.
My wife is still very distant at times, which I don't really take personally anymore, as she's always tired (up at 3am to be to work by 4am),
completely understandable. She is also still somewhat confused but told me that she has reached a point of calmness about her decision to "Seperate"
us, which is actually kind of funny because we're not according to the state we live in. I even joked with her about that on one occasion, she thought
it was funny too that we were calling it a separation at all.
So now as it stands I'm really hoping karma doesn't work in 3's because these last two have been close to devastating for me.
Stay tuned folks,
edit on 7/21/2014 by Frank_Rizzo because: (no reason given)