when i was about 16
and staying at a friends house during a summer
they were out for the day, i was there alone as they trusted me
there was a breakin and i was threatened by 3 or 4 balaclava wearing thugs
one claimed he had a knife
they didnt harm me and i was terrified
and the only thing from me they took was a bank card which had no money in it
since then i have never been the same
yes i get on with my life and am happy,
but that paranoia of loud noises has stuck with me since
and throughout the last few years it gets worse and worse
i am suffering from really bad anxiety,
any time its 6am and i hear loud rumbling nearby even if its a big truck or one of those early morning council street cleaner vans.. or just
somebody rolling the bin down the path for the bin men - my heart races and i am literally terrified
if ever somebody comes home excited and slams the door loudly, i am terrified
i am not a `nervous wreck in public ` and come across and try to be as normal as possible
but the trauma from that young age burgulary, the fear and the shock at the time has literally scarred me for life.
is there anybody on here similar?
PS this is the only song in the world that relaxes me
it makes me cry
edit on 9-6-2014 by uninfluenced because: (no reason given)
Yeah they do the same here in the States. Some criminal elements figured out that if they dress the same, usually a white shirt and blue jeans,
committing a crime is easier. When they run from the cops they head to an area where all you see is a white tshirt and jeans.
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