posted on Apr, 9 2015 @ 12:48 AM
a reply to: Night Star
I miss my youth and care free days and resent the shadows that fall over me like a plague.
I have suffered from PTSD all my life. One of the 'interesting' facets of the condition is that you can never see a bright or long future. I was
filling in a medical type form today reveling in the fact that I actually made it to 2015.
When I was still in high school I was not terribly interested because I would never make it to even the turn of the century and yet, here we are. I
not only made it to a point I never thought possible, it is 15 damn years further on
I may not have the happiest life of anyone but it is life! I have a new career, that of a writer and unless people are lying to me, they actually do
like my books.
It gives me a little something I have seldom had before.
I know I have said this to you before Night Star, but it is something you should truly think about on a deep level.
Why do you fear for your mother. She will die at some point, we all do. Death is a wonderful transition for her. You could be celebrating instead
of being fearful. For yourself as well.
I am not suggesting for a moment that we should all just up and off ourselves, far from it. But when the time comes, accept it. For myself, I am
simply intrigued as to what comes next.
You will tell me you do not fear death, but I do not believe it. You do not want to admit it and that, you have in common with most people. If you
can, relax, go deep into your mind and ask the question, 'What is death to me?'
You are loved.
edit on 9/4/2015 by pheonix358 because: (no reason given)