I will be ridiculed for this...but I have to get it off my chest

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posted on May, 7 2014 @ 07:25 PM
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I'm going to be as straight forward as possible right now with experiences I've had when meditating. I do not expect this to alarm anyone nor do I wish it to, but this information has alarmed me so much so that even after spending most of my life in some form of meditation, I have been shaken to my core with the strongest sense of fear I have ever felt in my entire existence.

My name is Eric and I was born into this body in Oceanside, California in the year 1987. I've never fit in with society, I've never understood society, I don't even know why this is so but that's what has been given to me in this life time. Despite it all, I love my people, I love all of you, even all plant and animal life, even the forces of nature. I am no troll, I am no delusional being nor have I ever been diagnosed with any major illnesses or diseases, either of body or mind and yes I have had myself checked many times due to my experiences. I've spent my life giving to others freely, accepting the suffering I am given on a day to day basis, even after finding my true self, my bond with the Creator, I still have a hard time with the lot of my experiences and that's just being as straight forward as possible.

I started knowingly following a spiritual path of meditation and mindfulness when I was 14 years old but didn't start having legitimate experiences with OBE's and inner visions till about 2009, so give or take 5 years ago. This started out pretty serene minus a few scary happenings here and there, but up until about a year ago my experiences never gave me any prophecies or future visions. At some point I was able to recall memories of experiences that I have not had in this life time so I assume they were from previous incarnations, but other than that nothing too miraculous has happened. Until today.

Since 11:00am this morning (-8GMT) until about an hour or so ago I have been in a deep meditation, usually I just sit deep within myself and communicate with the Source or whichever you would like to refer to it as, God, Higher Self, etc. But this time it was different, this intelligence that normally assists me in comprehending vast subjects of thought relayed to me visions and information that in a way seemed to be saddened as it told me (I don't understand how I know this, it's just what I felt). But what came from this scared me so much I snapped out of mediation and have been pacing my house for the past hour trying to calm myself down while attempting to rationalize what to do about this. I feel like the weight of the World has been placed on my shoulders and I don't know what to do, or how to live with it. Now as I explain this remember this information came to me in the form of instant understanding coupled with visions, hopefully you all understand what I mean by that.

From here on out is the explanation of the vision mixed with my understanding of what was being relayed to me.

It started out as usual, I was bathed in colors and energy in what feels like an endless vat of soothing warmth, I was communicating with my Source and was begging it to help me understand why the world seems to be falling apart. This is where things got weird, suddenly this ever-pervading sense of comfort was replaced by this sense of crying ones soul out, I can only partially use the example of getting your heart broken for the first time by your first love is how this felt. As this feeling came over my inner visions of brilliant vibrancy suddenly coalesced into a deep dark set of hues, I don't know how to explain it better than that. Immediately I found myself standing on some part of the earth, possibly the palomar mountain range near to my home. I was standing outside with crowds of other people and we were all there due to a terrorist attack that knocked out all the power in atleast the California area. People were panicking while others were trying to setup some sort of tangible homestead for the influx of people fleeing the cities and the mobs that were robbing everyone of weapons and supplies. It wasn't as chaotic as most movies and video games portrayed it, infact there seemed to be a decency amongst most of the people I was surrounded by that really made my heart warm.

Then all of a sudden everything went PITCH black, I don't know how to explain this any better other than it seemed like the entire universe "blinked" for a moment, as this happened a ROARING loud voice unlike anything I have ever heard screamed "ALL IS BEING TRANSMUTED INTO GOLD", then as the blackness vanished my vision returned to where it left off, except with what sounded like a billion jets flying above head, and I mean a BILLION, this sound shook the entire ground and vibrated through every cell of my body, it felt like my skeleton was being detached from my flesh. Everyone looked up, EVERYONE, and in that moment it seemed as if the entire Earth stood still, above us was the largest fireball I have ever seen, with many smaller pieces burning off around it. People around me started falling to their knees, others fainting where they stoodd, but not a single person could make a sound for the sound of this asteroid or meteor was so loud you couldn't hear yourself scream. I saw it flying West over the pacific ocean at such a speed all I could recall was a white flash in the far distance and a pillar of smoke that rose immediately to the heights of the upper atmosphere, this was something I have tried to imagine after seeing such movies as deep impact and 2012 but to be honest it was so much more. The trail this thing left behind EASILY covered 1/3 of the visible sky above. As soon as I understood that it hit a land mass and not the ocean I jumped out of meditation and am still feeling the effects of that vision.

It was beyond real and I can't explain how I know this but we do not have much time left, I don't know how much time exactly but I wasn't much older than I am now. The part of me that is clinging to not wanting to accept this is desperately trying to alter the information I was given and I'm guessing its because I don't want this to be true, but my real self, my soul, it knows this is happening and that this cannot be avoided.

So please everyone who reads this, tie up any loose ends in your life, love your family, spend as much time with them as possible. I know nobody will believe this and trust me, I don't want to either, but I know this is coming and it's very near. Please please please express all the love you can to what matters most to you in this life, for the sake of your own well being. I love you all and I'm so sorry for this but I've never felt stronger about confessing anything in my entire life than I do with this.

God I hope I'm wrong. Peace and love be with each and every one of you.
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posted on May, 7 2014 @ 07:36 PM
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No ridicule just thanks. I have no fear and do not pass judgement.what ever wil be will be today, tonight next year next millennia or never.



posted on May, 7 2014 @ 07:36 PM
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You are wrong, you presented double doom porn, terrorist attack and meteor, new kind of prediction, hehehehe.All predictions on ATS failed.Yours will fail too.



posted on May, 7 2014 @ 07:37 PM
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You've had a deep personal experience that you explained very well. I believe you and do not question at all that you had this experience. But why do you conclude that it is real for everyone else? Surely you are aware that people have been running to the mountaintop to await the end of the world for thousands of years after they had some sort of personal prophetic experience. Yet it has never happened. Why do you think it will this time?



posted on May, 7 2014 @ 07:38 PM
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Why should anyone believe your dream over the billions of other dreams that people have?

I had a dream last night that Kate Upton called up Beezer , Phage and I to go to an Opeth concert. I know this is coming and it's very near.

What is the difference between what I just said and what you just said?
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posted on May, 7 2014 @ 07:38 PM
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originally posted by: xavi1000
You are wrong, you presented double doom porn, terrorist attack and meteor, new kind of prediction, hehehehe.All predictions on ATS failed.Yours will fail too.


This is to be expected and truly I agree, I hope this does not come true.



posted on May, 7 2014 @ 07:39 PM
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If (and when) this doesn't happen. What will you think of this? over active imagination?

I will tell you this much, if it does happen I will remember reading this. But when it don't go down as you say...will you see this as your mind making things up?

MM



posted on May, 7 2014 @ 07:40 PM
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Wow full on man, love and inner peace to you, I hope your wrong....... I hope you have managed to calm your self, that must feel awful to be so freaked out,... Is your avatar picture an Alex Gray picture.?



posted on May, 7 2014 @ 07:40 PM
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originally posted by: schuyler
You've had a deep personal experience that you explained very well. I believe you and do not question at all that you had this experience. But why do you conclude that it is real for everyone else? Surely you are aware that people have been running to the mountaintop to await the end of the world for thousands of years after they had some sort of personal prophetic experience. Yet it has never happened. Why do you think it will this time?


Like I said I just wanted to get this off my chest, just in case. I understand that it may never come true, but even if there is a 1% chance it will I do not want that guilt of not telling anyone. I hope you understand.



posted on May, 7 2014 @ 07:42 PM
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Thank You for sharing this OP... Stories like this are what originally kept me at ATS, after first finding it in the beginning. Just personal, sincere sharing of what folks have experienced as a 1st person thing.



Forgive me for agreeing with your last line in the OP, and I hope you're wrong too. At the same time? Who knows....and it's worth hearing about, to be sure!



posted on May, 7 2014 @ 07:42 PM
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originally posted by: EviLCHiMP
This is to be expected and truly I agree, I hope this does not come true.

I can assure you that will not come true.This is your personal phobia.Smile, enjoy, go out....



posted on May, 7 2014 @ 07:42 PM
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a reply to: EviLCHiMP

I think it's probable that the state of the world has weighed more heavily on you recently and your fears manifested into a vision while you were meditating.



posted on May, 7 2014 @ 07:43 PM
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originally posted by: Mr Mask
If (and when) this doesn't happen. What will you think of this? over active imagination?

I will tell you this much, if it does happen I will remember reading this. But when it don't go down as you say...will you see this as your mind making things up?

MM


Absolutely absolutely absolutely. I am accepting the ridicule I will receive for this and it fails in comparison to the urge of having to communicate what I experienced.

Right here and right now I take full responsibility for this ludicrous experience I had and when I am proven wrong I will take all the damning and shaming that comes a long with making such statements.



posted on May, 7 2014 @ 07:45 PM
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I rest assured with all of your wisdoms, I just want this to be out there just in case. Thank you all for your discernment, I am glad to see people wising up to claims such as mine.



posted on May, 7 2014 @ 07:46 PM
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originally posted by: Wrabbit2000
Thank You for sharing this OP... Stories like this are what originally kept me at ATS, after first finding it in the beginning. Just personal, sincere sharing of what folks have experienced as a 1st person thing.



Forgive me for agreeing with your last line in the OP, and I hope you're wrong too. At the same time? Who knows....and it's worth hearing about, to be sure!


Thank you so much Wrabbit, you have a wonderful heart.



posted on May, 7 2014 @ 07:48 PM
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a reply to: EviLCHiMP



tie up any loose ends in your life, love your family, spend as much time with them as possible.


That is great advice under any circumstances.


I'd hope you are wrong and I'm fairly certain you are, but thanks for sharing and I'm sure that shook you up.



posted on May, 7 2014 @ 07:48 PM
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originally posted by: Cloudbuster
Wow full on man, love and inner peace to you, I hope your wrong....... I hope you have managed to calm your self, that must feel awful to be so freaked out,... Is your avatar picture an Alex Gray picture.?


Thank you so much, blessing to you as well my friend. Oh and yes! It is



posted on May, 7 2014 @ 07:50 PM
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originally posted by: Blaine91555
a reply to: EviLCHiMP



tie up any loose ends in your life, love your family, spend as much time with them as possible.


That is great advice under any circumstances.


I'd hope you are wrong and I'm fairly certain you are, but thanks for sharing and I'm sure that shook you up.


Omg yes it did! I literally felt my heart stop for a moment, it definitely stimulated me more than any amount of coffee could ever do. haha


and thank you for such kind words



posted on May, 7 2014 @ 07:52 PM
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originally posted by: opethPA
Why should anyone believe your dream over the billions of other dreams that people have?

I had a dream last night that Kate Upton called up Beezer , Phage and I to go to an Opeth concert. I know this is coming and it's very near.

What is the difference between what I just said and what you just said?


I'm not asking anyone to believe, in fact it's a lot more comforting to side with the non-believers than to give anymore heed to this doom porn I experienced.


P.S Opeth is the # \m/



posted on May, 7 2014 @ 08:01 PM
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Well, the earth has been devastated by space rocks before, it could happen again.

Modern man in his arrogance thinks he is indestructible, and protected by a divine power.

whyfiles.org...

So............

for me, everyday's a party
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