a reply to: onequestion
In response to your OP, no. I am not disgusted.
I am not saying I have evolved past it all. That would be a lie. I feel as though I have reached a crossroads and broken the barrier of circular
thinking. To say I am apart from thoughts, feelings, or sentiments of any kind is just setting myself up for a potential fall when I am truly faced
with those thoughts, feelings, or sentiments.
I know what human I can be and from that I CHOOSE to part in a direction of my choosing. I see myself first and foremost.
I dont steal for example, not because I am worried about what the consequences are or what people think of me. I KNOW I wouldnt like what I see in
the mirror. I may get away with stealing, especially if I am good at it, or if I have help. I may be praised for stealing from the right person or in
the right way by anyone depending on what I think they will see. In the end all those images of who I am would not be based on what I think but
rather they would be based on my perception of what others think.
That is the problem with people. We think we see and know ourselves but really we just worry about an image of us that others see. God , society, ect.
No where is the real you even taken into account. The only real and true witness to your story never chimes in all that convoluted mess.
The "good" of us, the "evil"....ALL BS. In the end we need only see ourselves for the sake of seeing ourselves truly.
I have seen plenty of people do right for all the wrong reasons. Same as seeing people do wrong for all the right reasons.
I know what I would do and why, and that is enough.
We dont need the validation, respect, or praise of others. WE WANT IT. The real you doesnt want. The real you CHOOSES what you need and gets it. The
real you is the way you are because that is who you chose to be. Even if that you is the last of your kind, solitary in your being and is completely
useless to others.
It is all circumstance to the choice you made of who you will to be.
I wish people had a mirror always to just truly look at themselves through their own eyes. One that didnt show anything but them. I wish they could
see themselves and not "them in a world of us".
edit on 4 17 2014 by tadaman because: (no reason given)