For weeks I've been having nightmares, mostly about my mother who was ravaged by cancer and I don't think will make it another year, if even this
month. She doesn't eat hardly anything, either because the pain is too much or she's given up on life. You can bet my emotional and mental state,
which to tell the truth wasn't so hot beforehand, is in tatters, and these constant nightmares, which become reality as I awaken, are taking their
toll. I'll dream about my childhood home, childhood friends, and there's my ailing mother...
Some of these nightmares take a different approach. Weeks ago, I awoke after a bad dream having only had a few hours of sleep. Every time I closed my
eyes to try and get back to sleep I would see what looked like glowing red eyes directly in front of me. A few days ago, I had a surreal dreams, or at
least I hope it was a dream, in which my red-eyed nemesis appeared. It was as if I had just woke up, I looked towards the television and saw my door
slowly opening. The red-eyed thing entered and flew towards me, it was all dark and shadowy and looked like it was wearing a hooded robe, although the
lower body wasn't there. The depictions of the Grim Reaper are pretty close to what it looked like, except no bones just all shadowy. I had placed
one arm over my face and reached out with the other to push it away, but my arm just went through it and was chilled as it passed through. It placed
its 'hands' on or over my chest as I tried in vain to call upon Jesus or God to send it away and I felt what I can only describe as an 'energy'
pulse. It moved lower and repeated the process, and then I woke up for sure. It was a really powerful dream, if I was truly asleep, complete with a
feeling of terror and utter helplessness.
Last night's nightmare was one of the worst yet. I have had some premonition type dreams before - I dreamed about stubbing my toe (which pretty much
never happens) and it did, I dream of breaking my glasses and sure enough a few days later I did, exactly how the dream had shown, and a few months
back I dreamt of European floods for some reason (I'm an American and have never been to Europe in this lifetime), and it turned out there actually
was flooding. I really hope this latest nightmare has nothing to do with any kind of prediction, premonitons, precognition, etc. because it was
This dream began kind of strange, but nothing too far out there. I was in a shopping mall with some of my family and were going through a department
store. I found the fabrics I was after and we split up, I was wandering past the toys section and decided to look at the LEGOs section to see what
kind of kits were available now. There was a little LEGO table and various parts scattered around it in the aisle that two children were playing with.
One had a jetski/speedboat thing and the other wanted one, which I found in the pile of parts before me. I set two or three of these boats on the
table and then began to make my way to the registers, which were near the exit doors, going through the 'corridor' of aisles until I got to an open
As soon as I took a step away from the corridor, shots rang out and a man that was next to me was hit twice in the chest. People began screaming and
running towards the exit, but were being mowed down by gunmen with automatic rifles who had the doors covered with
. I made my way towards the doors that led into the mall instead of outside,
and as I was running a C4 laden suicide bomber blew up, sending blood and flesh everywhere.
Outside the store, things were just as bad. A car bomb blew up at the nearest exit and I staggered into a corner. There were more gunmen in the
neighboring store and in the general hallway. With no where to run, I woke up as I was being killed. The terrorists weren't the typical Arab either,
but looked American/European with M4s/modern rifles instead of the typical AK-47 you'd expect when thinking of terrorists.
I have no idea why I would dream about a co-ordinated terrorist attack on a mall.
I was writing this post to try and make some of the anguish go away, but it had the opposite effect. So, if anyone have some anti-nightmare techniques
or whatever, I'm open to suggestions as I would like to not have grim reminders of my mother every night nor to witness massacres...