posted on Mar, 5 2014 @ 07:45 AM
I believe to be the worst mess ever. I'm quite good at connecting the dots and am good at providing a solution to problems sometimes but love seems
to go under the disguise of hate an opposite. Nothing is what it seems. Do I have a place in this world or am I only rejected in it? Are people
envious about me or do they just see me as a loser? Are people taking me on the right track? This world seems like a copy of the real deal. It's like
God sustains, but instead, we sustain ourselves, smashing other people's heads for food and whatever riches. So it seems. People who lend me a hand
are the same stabbing my back two minutes later. I said it many times before, someone is not particularly fair to me. Keeping me from attaining what I
want, and fooling me already having it. When I want to go back, it pulls me forward, there where I don't want to go. Are they keeping me from finding
the kingdom within?
As I said, it's like it's all it/they do(es), it seems to be their only purpose, yet I live together with the people.
Can we speak and discuss these things openly? What seems to be an elephant is a musquito, and otherwise.
I figure people just don't like us. I feel not ready for a war, but I don't feel like dying either.
The more you trust people, the more they keep you from what you want.
I feel this underlying battle, a silent war going on.