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reply to post by oktopus
I don't know as what some people see me? I think their view of myself is disturbing me and it might sound stupid but I think they like it, having the wrong idea about me. And they find pleasure in it since they know it disturbed me.
I yet have to find out who I truly am, maybe that will set me free.
But it's like it has power over me so I do the wrong things over and over again, keeping it alive. It's like I started to believe the lies about myself and made them reality. It's so sad when I look back. I feel like I have given up an accepted it to be this way. But it's not good. It's also like the weapons I use to defend myself were taken from me and used against me.