posted on Mar, 1 2014 @ 07:01 AM
reply to post by DeadSeraph
Everyone grieves differently hon. Everyone. I knew my father was dying but I was unprepared for the day he passed. I cannot remember the week
following his death at all...
I started throwing up all the time after that, I mean ALL the time. I would throw up if I ate and throw up if I didn't eat, it didn't matter, I was
puking. To get up in the morning meant throwing up about 4 or 5 times before I got out of bed, and I would throw up another 20 - 30 times before the
day was out.
I lost 30 pounds in 1 month and my doctor threatened me with hospitalization if I couldn't stop loosing weight. He gave me adavan I think it was
called, and told me to take as many as I needed every day in order to calm my nerves enough to eat. I was finally able to keep weight on, and even
gained a few pounds after that first year, and it was my daughter who kept me fighting for my own life at one point, because it was literally killing
me to loose him. (I am almost 5 foot 8 inches and weighed 130 when daddy died, so you can imagine how anorexic I looked at one point)
Then something weird happened. I started talking to my dad... just like before. If I needed advice I would say hey dad what do I do (he was my
confident, my advisor, my everything when he was alive) If I just wanted to talk to him I just started talking to him...
And that is when I began to heal, that is when it became okay for him not to be beside me, because I would hear his words, I found he was still there,
even if he wasn't there physically, he was still there.
You are going to be different than me, and you will grieve in your own way... but I do recommend talking to your dad, even after he dies.
edit on 1-3-2014 by OpinionatedB because: (no reason given)